Wow... close one...
Well. Tonight I almost became ... single.
I was talking to Marcos about some stuff I've been feeling lately, and some stuff I've been noticing about his attitude, and one thing led to another and I said I wasn't sure if I wanted to marry him.
That obviously was a shocker to him... it hit him hard and he didn't take it too well. I can understand that though cuz that's hard to hear from the person you love. Especially since he just spent somewhere between 4 and 5 thousand on a ring for me. But i kept talking to him and explaining everything i was feeling.. he heard me... but he wasn't listening. So we went back and forth for a while and we decided it'd be best if i left for a while. When he was getting into his car, i asked him what this meant for us. he simply replied, "casey... you got your wish."
I had no clue what that meant. And I was obviously upset with everything too, so i left his house crying and truly unsure if we were still together or not.
I came home and talked to my brother since my mom is out of town and i also got a call from his best friend asking what happened. Half way through that phone conversation marcos beeped in. He was asking to see me.
So he stopped by my house and i met him outside. He was calm, cool and collected now... different then when i spoke to him 10 minutes before. At the same time, I could tell he was upset. But I was looking at him differently now... it felt weird. This is the first time we've ever come this close to breaking up. And to be honest, if he hadn't come to me that night and said the things he did, it'd be over right now. And I would be something I honestly haven't been since my freshman year of highschool.... I'd be single.
I'm really, extremely glad we got it worked out... but he'll be walking on egg-shells for a while. I gave him a second chance and that's all I can manage. Anymore of this and it'll be over... and he knows that now.
-Casey-
I was talking to Marcos about some stuff I've been feeling lately, and some stuff I've been noticing about his attitude, and one thing led to another and I said I wasn't sure if I wanted to marry him.
That obviously was a shocker to him... it hit him hard and he didn't take it too well. I can understand that though cuz that's hard to hear from the person you love. Especially since he just spent somewhere between 4 and 5 thousand on a ring for me. But i kept talking to him and explaining everything i was feeling.. he heard me... but he wasn't listening. So we went back and forth for a while and we decided it'd be best if i left for a while. When he was getting into his car, i asked him what this meant for us. he simply replied, "casey... you got your wish."
I had no clue what that meant. And I was obviously upset with everything too, so i left his house crying and truly unsure if we were still together or not.
I came home and talked to my brother since my mom is out of town and i also got a call from his best friend asking what happened. Half way through that phone conversation marcos beeped in. He was asking to see me.
So he stopped by my house and i met him outside. He was calm, cool and collected now... different then when i spoke to him 10 minutes before. At the same time, I could tell he was upset. But I was looking at him differently now... it felt weird. This is the first time we've ever come this close to breaking up. And to be honest, if he hadn't come to me that night and said the things he did, it'd be over right now. And I would be something I honestly haven't been since my freshman year of highschool.... I'd be single.
I'm really, extremely glad we got it worked out... but he'll be walking on egg-shells for a while. I gave him a second chance and that's all I can manage. Anymore of this and it'll be over... and he knows that now.
-Casey-