Back.
I'm back. At Hogwarts. I'm trying to be 'normal'. It's hard. I get cravings and it scares me how much I want to snort a line. Just one. But I know I can't, for various reasons. The main being my family and friends.
Speaking of friends, Star came by the hospital yesterday before they released me. We talked for a LONG time. About lots of things. I don't know where this thing it going, but it's nice. She's another reason why I'm trying so hard. She's dealt with a lot of pain surrounding the kind of lifestyle I've been living and she doesn't need it. So I'm trying. Also for Lavender. She'll always be in my heart and I know I've hurt her. Really badly and that I can't take it back. I know it's too late and that we'll never be together again, but I'm hoping we can still be close, be friends.
I've been spending lots of time with Jared. I need to fill the void that I've created between us. He didn't deserve ANY of what I did to him. I've been a horrible role model and I'm glad that he's smart enough to know what I was doing was wrong and bad. *laughs* But on a good note, he's starting to get into girls. He is having a dilemma right now. Between a girl he REALLY likes and one that would be a convenient girlfriend. I told him to follow his heart. Which I should have done.
Right, well I better get dressed. I just took a shower and I'm updating this in my towel. Much to the delight of many girls. ;) I know, I'm evil and probably egotistical. Haha. Anyways, I told Jared and Star that'd I'd take them and Star's little sister out for the day. It's a Saturday, so maybe we can find a good carnival or something. I dunno.
Speaking of friends, Star came by the hospital yesterday before they released me. We talked for a LONG time. About lots of things. I don't know where this thing it going, but it's nice. She's another reason why I'm trying so hard. She's dealt with a lot of pain surrounding the kind of lifestyle I've been living and she doesn't need it. So I'm trying. Also for Lavender. She'll always be in my heart and I know I've hurt her. Really badly and that I can't take it back. I know it's too late and that we'll never be together again, but I'm hoping we can still be close, be friends.
I've been spending lots of time with Jared. I need to fill the void that I've created between us. He didn't deserve ANY of what I did to him. I've been a horrible role model and I'm glad that he's smart enough to know what I was doing was wrong and bad. *laughs* But on a good note, he's starting to get into girls. He is having a dilemma right now. Between a girl he REALLY likes and one that would be a convenient girlfriend. I told him to follow his heart. Which I should have done.
Right, well I better get dressed. I just took a shower and I'm updating this in my towel. Much to the delight of many girls. ;) I know, I'm evil and probably egotistical. Haha. Anyways, I told Jared and Star that'd I'd take them and Star's little sister out for the day. It's a Saturday, so maybe we can find a good carnival or something. I dunno.