I'm back.... or something like that....
I'm back for the time being and i feel all sorts of strange about everything thats going on in my life right now. I feel so left behind by all of the events that are taking place. I didn't expect everyones life to stop while i was gone but i also didn't expect to be left out of it either. And i'm not the best person at meeting new people. I don't like to talk to people. There's always that under lying what if for me and i don't understand why. I don't know, i want to go out to a bar and shoot some pool and drink til i'm stupid. But its kinda pathetic to do these things by yourself. So instead of doing anything, i do nothing. I go to work, slowly becoming a workaholic and i come home and do nothing. I make an attempt to talk to people i was in the military with but it seems like i can only trust them as far as i can throw them. What happened to the days when we could trust everyone that you met and not have a care in the world. What happened to the days where you always had friends and someone to hang out with. What happened to these times in history. I want to know. I hate feeling alone and i'm slowing turning back to ways i thought i left behind. I'm beginning to feel darker, my pessimism is being overshadowed by something deeper and more cynical.....