Dreams
Remembered three dreams in the past week. Kinda ran the gamut, though I never really have nightmares. Ranged from implacably mundane to wish-fulfillment fantasy to disturbing morality-questioning.
Don't usually remember dreams -- once a week is a lot. Probably because my sleep schedule's been more irregular than usual lately; I remember them more often when I wake up and go back to sleep.
Still, it's different, and things that are different concern me.
Also, one of them involved me shooting a yellow lab that attacked me, and then trying to shoot it again once it was disabled and helpless. Regardless of me then nursing it back to health, in the dream I was scared enough to want to kill, even after the crisis was over. That bothers me. Is it something I'm capable of, or just something I'm worried I might be capable of? Stupid subconscious, be less opaque. >:(
This may have had to do with watching Dexter, where "may have" equates to "probably."
~me
"Psssst. Dude. Your balls are showing."
"Good to know."
P.S. -- Phil emailed and said that Paula called him into a meeting to express her concerns that I was forcing him to trade days with me against his will. I lol'd. I took it at face value to start with, but my cynical side is wondering if she's doing damage control on employee perception of her. I mean, honestly, who the hell would think that I'm pressuring someone who's been working there four? times as long as I have to work Sundays for me? And if I would, why hadn't I done so earlier with someone else without as much seniority? My italics should be indicative of the level of craziness this conclusion implies.
Don't usually remember dreams -- once a week is a lot. Probably because my sleep schedule's been more irregular than usual lately; I remember them more often when I wake up and go back to sleep.
Still, it's different, and things that are different concern me.
Also, one of them involved me shooting a yellow lab that attacked me, and then trying to shoot it again once it was disabled and helpless. Regardless of me then nursing it back to health, in the dream I was scared enough to want to kill, even after the crisis was over. That bothers me. Is it something I'm capable of, or just something I'm worried I might be capable of? Stupid subconscious, be less opaque. >:(
This may have had to do with watching Dexter, where "may have" equates to "probably."
~me
"Psssst. Dude. Your balls are showing."
"Good to know."
P.S. -- Phil emailed and said that Paula called him into a meeting to express her concerns that I was forcing him to trade days with me against his will. I lol'd. I took it at face value to start with, but my cynical side is wondering if she's doing damage control on employee perception of her. I mean, honestly, who the hell would think that I'm pressuring someone who's been working there four? times as long as I have to work Sundays for me? And if I would, why hadn't I done so earlier with someone else without as much seniority? My italics should be indicative of the level of craziness this conclusion implies.