time for change
i feel myself wanting changes. from little to big. you know, people say you hit 40 and have this so-called mid-life crisis....well, i guess that is how i feel. i just want different things. maybe its a phase?
changes from style, hair, books, hobbies, location and even to boys, which is horrible. but, i love my job.
i find myself wanting other things. i dont know what my problem is. i dyed my hair dark, and i love it. i see guys that i passed by and others that make me wonder. and its stupid. i cant live in the past. i have to deal with the now. and, its not even the ' one that got away ' syndrome because it isn't even him that i am talking about - and hmm, maybe thats a first too?
anyway, its all nothing. just being dumb. how does one stop dwelling on the past? my cure, happiness i would assume....what do you think? and how does one obtain such a thing? i have ideas. someday i will put those in writing.
till then.
changes from style, hair, books, hobbies, location and even to boys, which is horrible. but, i love my job.
i find myself wanting other things. i dont know what my problem is. i dyed my hair dark, and i love it. i see guys that i passed by and others that make me wonder. and its stupid. i cant live in the past. i have to deal with the now. and, its not even the ' one that got away ' syndrome because it isn't even him that i am talking about - and hmm, maybe thats a first too?
anyway, its all nothing. just being dumb. how does one stop dwelling on the past? my cure, happiness i would assume....what do you think? and how does one obtain such a thing? i have ideas. someday i will put those in writing.
till then.