Becoming Anti-Social and Emo and a Fool.
My lack of daily socialization is the reason behind my becoming anti-social. Working home-based is much more depressing than I thought. The boyfriend also commented recently that I have been a lot more sullen and quiet, and I get easily annoyed at the thought of him going to other places and events that I don't go to. WELL BECAUSE HE DOESNT INVITE ME ANYWAY.
My work is putting a lot of strain. My dad hates my work too. He's giving me blatant hints (ie shouting) that I should go back to a desk office or work for the government. I am taking his advice seriously now.
I used to love being at home. I am a homebody, but now I do not appreciate being locked in my room for 8 hours straight. After 6 months of working, I have a strange need to ride the bus. Daily. Off to somewhere wherever. Just to feel that I am still free. The feel of a moving vehicle and seeing the bored look on people's faces beside me make me happy.
Bus rides and bored looks. Have I sunk this low?
I don't think I can take much more.
In other news, I think I need a vacation. Been bugging the boyfriend to go on a vacation with me, but he told me he doesn't have time and so offered alternatives. I could go to the beach on my own if I wanted to, but that isn't the point. I could also opt to bring a friend along but that isn't what I want. We'll see on his break. I'll ask again.
My work is putting a lot of strain. My dad hates my work too. He's giving me blatant hints (ie shouting) that I should go back to a desk office or work for the government. I am taking his advice seriously now.
I used to love being at home. I am a homebody, but now I do not appreciate being locked in my room for 8 hours straight. After 6 months of working, I have a strange need to ride the bus. Daily. Off to somewhere wherever. Just to feel that I am still free. The feel of a moving vehicle and seeing the bored look on people's faces beside me make me happy.
Bus rides and bored looks. Have I sunk this low?
I don't think I can take much more.
In other news, I think I need a vacation. Been bugging the boyfriend to go on a vacation with me, but he told me he doesn't have time and so offered alternatives. I could go to the beach on my own if I wanted to, but that isn't the point. I could also opt to bring a friend along but that isn't what I want. We'll see on his break. I'll ask again.