[Arioka Daiki] The ‘You’ that He Loves Most
Oh no! Don’t cry.
But you did. You helplessly did.
That’s why. You never saw the special things; the very small yet beautiful things that can make everything alright. Because as you drown yourself to your self-woe; you didn’t even notice the train coming and slowly opening and revealing a very disoriented, disheveled and seemingly just got out of bed Arioka Daiki, panting hard and catching his breath, while scanning the whole subway station, until he spotted you- the self-conscious you.
“He-Hey…” He called out your name. Though as he did, the sound of his heavy breathing paired with the sound of the door of the train closing in the background echoed like bullets, yet you ignored everything. You lay no open ears to anything that are resonating and moving around you; as you continued on to let the tears flow. And he knows. “…idiot,” he murmured as he stared at you with a worried look plastered on his face. “I’m here now. Hey…” He ran up to you, but you still didn’t look up. So, he panicked because he didn’t want this. He didn’t want you to cry again, especially not if it’s because of his own stupid mistakes. “…don’t cry. Hey…” He cooed as he tried to make you look at him and smile, yet you didn’t even give him a glance. And he knows. He knows he needs to explain. Because, he knows; he knows fully well that you need to understand. He needs you to, because he loves you the most.
“I’m sorry,” and he wanted to differ. He desperately did, because it involves you-only you. “I know what I did is unforgivable, but hey, please… look at me, and just listen. Please, just listen, because I want you to understand.” Arioka Daiki’s eyes flashed with desperation before a frown made its way on his lips as he rub the back of his neck, nervous, because his reason is undeniably stupid. However, it’s a common trait that he could not forget or even leave behind. “I over slept.” He reasoned out, before he kneeled down in front of you and smiled. “I’m sorry for that. I over slept because the concert was practically mind settling. It made me real tired. So, I’m sorry…” He palmed your cheeks with his hands, as he suddenly pulled you towards him in a tight hug. “…I’m sorry, okay? So, sorry…so, sorry always for being like this,” He explained as he held you close to him, not even bothering if the people inside the subway station are looking and dotting at such compromising position that the two of you are in. “…so, don’t dare cry, especially not because of me. Just not because of me, I’m sorry.” He breathed in before his lips lingered against your ears, nipping it slightly, before whispering with utmost devotion and love-like a mother would to a child, and like how a lover would to his one and only love. “You mean more than what you ever think or assume. You mean so much more to that to me.” He mused as he ran kisses from your ears to your cheeks and then lastly to your forehead, before he lingered close to your lips.
However, you turned and moved away from his lips and his sweet and very warm embrace. Because in your head words kept on crashing in, and it all needed an end. It all needs to stop. Enough, you wanted to say, yet when you saw those sparkling eyes and those dazzling brown eyes looking baffled and genuinely confused. You couldn’t do anything but look on the other side, even if, all you’ve ever wanted is him and his time-now. You can’t, because you need to sort things out. You need him to hear you out, now.
“You’re always like this. You never change. You always make promises you can’t even keep. You always make me feel so insecure. You always make me feel this kind of sadness that someday soon you’ll leave. That someday soon, my Dai-chan will never come and will simply just go and vanish and leave me. A-And…the-these thoughts…hurts,” uncontrollable tears, “…they hurt like tons, Dai-chan-always. It hurts, always. So, I don’t know. I guess, it’s finally time for us to-” But he never allowed you to finish, because before you even knew it. His lips, it had dampened yours into soul-searing kiss.
I love you, and with every ounce of love that he has. He tried desperately to convey to you what he truly feels inside. Because loving you has always been his greatest strength, and loving you so much has also caused him great amount of pain. Yet, he could not ask for anything more and anything less. Since loving you has always been the best damn thing that was given to him and he really wouldn’t have it any other way. You’re perfect. You always have been to him. That’s why as bold and as simple as he could. He passed to you his feelings as he allowed his lips to blend in with yours. Suffocating you both into a blissful state; a state of uttermost happiness-I love you. And he hopes that is enough. Because, he dearly wanted to; he wanted to just tell you that he knows. He fully knows that it has always been him who couldn’t reciprocate the end line. It was him, always. Not you, nor anybody else. So please, don’t let this entire thing go.
“No, we won’t. And, No, I’ll never do that and neither will you. Because…” He took hold of your two hands, laced it with his before he leaned his forehead to yours as he closed his eyes. “I love you, more than anyone. I love you, more than anything else. I love you, so please don’t ever think such. Because… if it’s you I’ll do anything, quit Johnny’s if I must. I’ll leave, even my own dreams just to be with you-always. So please…” He whispered.
And that is enough, absolutely enough to satisfy your aching heart. Yet still, why? Why do you want to make all this hard and kill him slowly inside? Why? “Dai-chan…” You called his name out, but he heeded no mind to that. He simply just pulled you much closer and much tighter into his arms. “Hush.” and that was a direct command, a simple command that somewhat pulled your heart into thousands of knots.
“It will all be fine. I’m sorry. So please, give me always a chance, because…” He looked straight into your eyes, before he leaned his head against your shoulders and allowed his weaknesses to show and his defenses to fall apart. Because if it’s you, he’ll never be ashamed; he’ll never be ashamed to show the side of him who breaks.
And that’s what pulled you back. That’s what made you grasp again and hold on to him with everything that you have. Because that mere action, it is what guided you to the reality of you and him and the genuine love shared by both side. It is the mere moment when the tears began to flow down his beautiful eyes and slowly started on dampening your clothes did you realize that if for everyone, you are not good enough. For Arioka Daiki, you’ll always be just enough-enough to fill in the missing piece and to complete his heart. So, a mere habit of over sleeping will not be the cause of such break up.
As well as, who would even dare break up with such person, right? A person named Arioka Daiki who rushed out of his home, rode a train, and forgot his other footwear near the entrance of the train station to go to his girlfriend, while wearing his yellow colored penguin-printed pajamas.
It’s actually embarrassing, but that’s love. And no one would have it in any other way.
“So, ice cream?” He offered with a grin paired with those tear-stained puffy eyes, before you slapped him on the shoulder and laced your hands with his when you saw the approaching train. “Later, but first…let’s get you in a more decent clothes,” You left a chuckle, before yours and his laughter echoed hard. “After all, I don’t want any scandal of a certain JUMP member being spotted on wearing a penguin-printed pajama now do I?” You snickered as you tugged on his arms and pulled him towards his station ride home.
“So change first and let’s go and have our postponed date; your treat.” You pointed out like a child and that made him smile, because it’s you. It has always been you.
The ‘You’ that he loves most
Fin
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Author’s Note: How was it? It’s not my best, and I hope not my worst. XD Actually this is my first OC-based story. I don’t usually write such, but lately I’ve been exploring new things. I am not opposing to the JUMP x OC pair really, but I do not usually write it. I still stick to my OTP. But hey, this is really a nice change of phase. A few readers but it’s more of my own satisfaction really. And I do it without names, because I really want to deeply establish a certain kind of feel, wherein everybody can be the girl protagonist. So I hope everybody enjoys.
But you did. You helplessly did.
That’s why. You never saw the special things; the very small yet beautiful things that can make everything alright. Because as you drown yourself to your self-woe; you didn’t even notice the train coming and slowly opening and revealing a very disoriented, disheveled and seemingly just got out of bed Arioka Daiki, panting hard and catching his breath, while scanning the whole subway station, until he spotted you- the self-conscious you.
“He-Hey…” He called out your name. Though as he did, the sound of his heavy breathing paired with the sound of the door of the train closing in the background echoed like bullets, yet you ignored everything. You lay no open ears to anything that are resonating and moving around you; as you continued on to let the tears flow. And he knows. “…idiot,” he murmured as he stared at you with a worried look plastered on his face. “I’m here now. Hey…” He ran up to you, but you still didn’t look up. So, he panicked because he didn’t want this. He didn’t want you to cry again, especially not if it’s because of his own stupid mistakes. “…don’t cry. Hey…” He cooed as he tried to make you look at him and smile, yet you didn’t even give him a glance. And he knows. He knows he needs to explain. Because, he knows; he knows fully well that you need to understand. He needs you to, because he loves you the most.
“I’m sorry,” and he wanted to differ. He desperately did, because it involves you-only you. “I know what I did is unforgivable, but hey, please… look at me, and just listen. Please, just listen, because I want you to understand.” Arioka Daiki’s eyes flashed with desperation before a frown made its way on his lips as he rub the back of his neck, nervous, because his reason is undeniably stupid. However, it’s a common trait that he could not forget or even leave behind. “I over slept.” He reasoned out, before he kneeled down in front of you and smiled. “I’m sorry for that. I over slept because the concert was practically mind settling. It made me real tired. So, I’m sorry…” He palmed your cheeks with his hands, as he suddenly pulled you towards him in a tight hug. “…I’m sorry, okay? So, sorry…so, sorry always for being like this,” He explained as he held you close to him, not even bothering if the people inside the subway station are looking and dotting at such compromising position that the two of you are in. “…so, don’t dare cry, especially not because of me. Just not because of me, I’m sorry.” He breathed in before his lips lingered against your ears, nipping it slightly, before whispering with utmost devotion and love-like a mother would to a child, and like how a lover would to his one and only love. “You mean more than what you ever think or assume. You mean so much more to that to me.” He mused as he ran kisses from your ears to your cheeks and then lastly to your forehead, before he lingered close to your lips.
However, you turned and moved away from his lips and his sweet and very warm embrace. Because in your head words kept on crashing in, and it all needed an end. It all needs to stop. Enough, you wanted to say, yet when you saw those sparkling eyes and those dazzling brown eyes looking baffled and genuinely confused. You couldn’t do anything but look on the other side, even if, all you’ve ever wanted is him and his time-now. You can’t, because you need to sort things out. You need him to hear you out, now.
“You’re always like this. You never change. You always make promises you can’t even keep. You always make me feel so insecure. You always make me feel this kind of sadness that someday soon you’ll leave. That someday soon, my Dai-chan will never come and will simply just go and vanish and leave me. A-And…the-these thoughts…hurts,” uncontrollable tears, “…they hurt like tons, Dai-chan-always. It hurts, always. So, I don’t know. I guess, it’s finally time for us to-” But he never allowed you to finish, because before you even knew it. His lips, it had dampened yours into soul-searing kiss.
I love you, and with every ounce of love that he has. He tried desperately to convey to you what he truly feels inside. Because loving you has always been his greatest strength, and loving you so much has also caused him great amount of pain. Yet, he could not ask for anything more and anything less. Since loving you has always been the best damn thing that was given to him and he really wouldn’t have it any other way. You’re perfect. You always have been to him. That’s why as bold and as simple as he could. He passed to you his feelings as he allowed his lips to blend in with yours. Suffocating you both into a blissful state; a state of uttermost happiness-I love you. And he hopes that is enough. Because, he dearly wanted to; he wanted to just tell you that he knows. He fully knows that it has always been him who couldn’t reciprocate the end line. It was him, always. Not you, nor anybody else. So please, don’t let this entire thing go.
“No, we won’t. And, No, I’ll never do that and neither will you. Because…” He took hold of your two hands, laced it with his before he leaned his forehead to yours as he closed his eyes. “I love you, more than anyone. I love you, more than anything else. I love you, so please don’t ever think such. Because… if it’s you I’ll do anything, quit Johnny’s if I must. I’ll leave, even my own dreams just to be with you-always. So please…” He whispered.
And that is enough, absolutely enough to satisfy your aching heart. Yet still, why? Why do you want to make all this hard and kill him slowly inside? Why? “Dai-chan…” You called his name out, but he heeded no mind to that. He simply just pulled you much closer and much tighter into his arms. “Hush.” and that was a direct command, a simple command that somewhat pulled your heart into thousands of knots.
“It will all be fine. I’m sorry. So please, give me always a chance, because…” He looked straight into your eyes, before he leaned his head against your shoulders and allowed his weaknesses to show and his defenses to fall apart. Because if it’s you, he’ll never be ashamed; he’ll never be ashamed to show the side of him who breaks.
And that’s what pulled you back. That’s what made you grasp again and hold on to him with everything that you have. Because that mere action, it is what guided you to the reality of you and him and the genuine love shared by both side. It is the mere moment when the tears began to flow down his beautiful eyes and slowly started on dampening your clothes did you realize that if for everyone, you are not good enough. For Arioka Daiki, you’ll always be just enough-enough to fill in the missing piece and to complete his heart. So, a mere habit of over sleeping will not be the cause of such break up.
As well as, who would even dare break up with such person, right? A person named Arioka Daiki who rushed out of his home, rode a train, and forgot his other footwear near the entrance of the train station to go to his girlfriend, while wearing his yellow colored penguin-printed pajamas.
It’s actually embarrassing, but that’s love. And no one would have it in any other way.
“So, ice cream?” He offered with a grin paired with those tear-stained puffy eyes, before you slapped him on the shoulder and laced your hands with his when you saw the approaching train. “Later, but first…let’s get you in a more decent clothes,” You left a chuckle, before yours and his laughter echoed hard. “After all, I don’t want any scandal of a certain JUMP member being spotted on wearing a penguin-printed pajama now do I?” You snickered as you tugged on his arms and pulled him towards his station ride home.
“So change first and let’s go and have our postponed date; your treat.” You pointed out like a child and that made him smile, because it’s you. It has always been you.
The ‘You’ that he loves most
Fin
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Author’s Note: How was it? It’s not my best, and I hope not my worst. XD Actually this is my first OC-based story. I don’t usually write such, but lately I’ve been exploring new things. I am not opposing to the JUMP x OC pair really, but I do not usually write it. I still stick to my OTP. But hey, this is really a nice change of phase. A few readers but it’s more of my own satisfaction really. And I do it without names, because I really want to deeply establish a certain kind of feel, wherein everybody can be the girl protagonist. So I hope everybody enjoys.