[YamaChii] Even if
JA">Title:mso-fareast-language:JA"> Even if
Author: Ai no Messeji
Pairing: YamaChii;
Genre: Slice of Life, Romance
mso-fareast-language:JA">Summary: JA">His acts maybe too tiring already, but his apologies are always what fix everything.
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mso-fareast-font-family:"Elmer_P Font";mso-fareast-language:JA">“I know that in return of every kisses, every touches and heartfelt romances…” Yamada Ryosuke whispered in a rasped, yet so very sincere voice, a reason palpable enough to be dunk inside the bin of broken promises. Still, even if that’s the same routine, the same case-he needs not to get tired of saying it. Of pressing further ahead a promise, broken so many times, yet never cease to forget how to make it all better-to explain, to heal and to mend what went loose, what went broken, what he chose to ignore than to fix further ahead.
Because, even if people, friends and even family, deem he not worthy of such everlasting and honest love from a person, who knows how to show loyalty and true feelings. He will not give into words and to their dire judgment, because even if he fails now. At least, he never forgets to amend, to repeatedly kneel and beg-shed thousands, millions and even billions of tears, just so that he can be heard and his pleading heart can be seen suffering as well.
After all, why should he hear other people out? They don’t even know how their love works. Only the two of them understands, and knows the reason of the pain and the sacrifices they’ve been crafting-he’s been making and been living in for so long now. “...I know that you break and still hurt. But even so, like what I always say to you, Yuri. I...” droplet of tears and a pained sob, “I just want you to know, that-” a kiss on the forehead, “…even if I do countless of fan services with him, and even if I seem to drift away from you. I-I promise you. I promise you that I will never leave you.” A kiss a top that sniffling, cute nose, “I will never be dishonest to you.” A kiss a top those tear stained cheeks, “…and I will always love you, forever and ever, until my last breathe. So…” His lips lingered, only centimeters away, from those parted and heaving plump, pink lips that have been silently crying his name in solace.
While he, during those time of need, closed his ears to listen, not due to pain, because the pain have always been bearable enough. It always have been bearable enough, but what he tries to shut down from his system-from his world, is to hear that heart crack again and again and again and again. Because, the worst may come that the moment he let his ears open up to the sound of their shattering relationship; he might not hear anything anymore-nothing anymore, because there is no more relationship to fix and no more heart to heal, since all is already at its end. Everything is just too late. They drifted away. “…please don’t get tired of me. Please don’t let go, because never will I get tired of loving you and begging you to forgive me, even if I know that it hurts and that it is unbearable anymore to even hold on to the promises and words I can’t even keep.” He closed the gap between them in a silent kiss of surrender, while as their lips chase every worries and every doubt from their relationship away. Promises are built that, as long as they love each other and believe in each other. Nothing else will matter, even the pain, because the bond of love is nothing of what the naked eyes see. It’s more of how their heart believes and trusts each other that everything will soon be okay, since the two of them are meant to be-always and forever, just always and forevermore meant to be for each other.
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mso-fareast-font-family:"Elmer_P Font";mso-fareast-language:JA">Fin.
mso-fareast-font-family:"Elmer_P Font";mso-fareast-language:JA">Author’s Note: mso-fareast-font-family:"Elmer_P Font";mso-fareast-language:JA">I am not in the mood to write YamaChii lately. Since, I’ve been seeing them less and I’ve been inspiration-less. I won’t tell anymore of my reason. It’s upsetting as is. I might as well go back to ChiiTaro for a while. Although, I hope everyone will enjoy this short piece of crappy drabble. I might not be in good terms with Yama-chan now, but I want to justify something for him. Thank you for reading.