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What is it that you wait for in the middle of the night?
Soundlessly sleeping, thouse who are dreaming.
What is it that you wait for when dusk has long gone by.
Slilently hopeing, with thouse still dreaming.
You will wait in vain for your dream to come, for it has been long in time that that moment has passed.
Yet remember it well, for you waved it away.
So i fucked up and did someoen wrong. Apologies wont work forever. Here lies my lesson. I can be sorry, but that dosent mean i will be forgiven. What should i do next? I would quit everything jsut for him, but it dosent work the other way around. Female. Just a girl. I couldent just stay there all day and clean. i can see myself getting fat allready. I need a job. I have an interview on wed. for wendies. i thought tomarrow was wed. That how long today seemed. I can pull my own weight. My dad has a job again, starting tomarrow, which is not wed. but tues. I really seemes like it wont work. And i fucked it up. My fault. I know that, which is why i am sorry, but i know that is not, nor will it ever, be good enough. Better. How much better can he do? So much better. It's got to be easy to find someone better then me. I made my choice, do something on my own. See what happens when you live for your own selfishness. Rusty and I will have a lot to talk about when he gets back. I pulled a rusty. Fucking bitch. Lier. Didi becoem a lier too? What did i lie about. i hate liers. it sucks when you find out the truth. doesit hurt as much as what i feel now i wonder. blegh. indiffrence. that is what i will show. jokes even go bad now. i fuck up a lot. where did my hand eye cordination go? what am i going to be doing. Job. That is vital. Despite the words of my parnts, i need to pay for my own books. They are trying to force me to stay here, and i feel as though that is what i must do. where else can i go? What is wrong with the people i have befriended? do i jsut turn a blind eye to the faults of others? Am i overly critical? What do i want? what do i understand? What do i need? I need to finish my schooling. I need a job. I need friends. i can narrow it down to thouse thre things. I did something bad today. It wasnt my business to do it, but i read it anyway. I wish i had selfless devotion to one thing. I would. But i would never force myself on someone like it seemed she was doing. Or perhaps that was my jelous judgment. When did i start to need cigaretts? When did i hate being alone so much? When did i begin to fear deep water. I couldent find the bottom. The safty of the bottom. Where have my risk gone? In to making stupid decisions?
I would die for you
I would die for you
I've been dying just to feel you by my side
To know that you're mine
I will cry for you
I will cry for you
I will wash away your pain with all my tears
And drown your fear
I will pray for you
I will pray for you
I will sell my soul for something pure and true
Someone like you
See your face every place that I walk in
Hear your voice every time that I'm talking
You will believe in me
And I will never be ignored
I will burn for you
Feel pain for you
I will twist the knife and bleed my aching heart
And tear it apart
I will lie for you
Beg and steal for you
I will crawl on hands and knees until you see
You're just like me
Violate all the love that I'm missing
Throw away all the pain that I'm living
You will believe in me
And I can never be ignored
I would die for you
I would kill for you
I will steal for you
I'd do time for you
I will wait for you
I'd make room for you
I'd sail ships for you
To be close to you
To be part of you
Cause I believe in you
I believe in you
I would die for you
And yet. I can promise to leave you alone, just ask me to and i will.
Soundlessly sleeping, thouse who are dreaming.
What is it that you wait for when dusk has long gone by.
Slilently hopeing, with thouse still dreaming.
You will wait in vain for your dream to come, for it has been long in time that that moment has passed.
Yet remember it well, for you waved it away.
So i fucked up and did someoen wrong. Apologies wont work forever. Here lies my lesson. I can be sorry, but that dosent mean i will be forgiven. What should i do next? I would quit everything jsut for him, but it dosent work the other way around. Female. Just a girl. I couldent just stay there all day and clean. i can see myself getting fat allready. I need a job. I have an interview on wed. for wendies. i thought tomarrow was wed. That how long today seemed. I can pull my own weight. My dad has a job again, starting tomarrow, which is not wed. but tues. I really seemes like it wont work. And i fucked it up. My fault. I know that, which is why i am sorry, but i know that is not, nor will it ever, be good enough. Better. How much better can he do? So much better. It's got to be easy to find someone better then me. I made my choice, do something on my own. See what happens when you live for your own selfishness. Rusty and I will have a lot to talk about when he gets back. I pulled a rusty. Fucking bitch. Lier. Didi becoem a lier too? What did i lie about. i hate liers. it sucks when you find out the truth. doesit hurt as much as what i feel now i wonder. blegh. indiffrence. that is what i will show. jokes even go bad now. i fuck up a lot. where did my hand eye cordination go? what am i going to be doing. Job. That is vital. Despite the words of my parnts, i need to pay for my own books. They are trying to force me to stay here, and i feel as though that is what i must do. where else can i go? What is wrong with the people i have befriended? do i jsut turn a blind eye to the faults of others? Am i overly critical? What do i want? what do i understand? What do i need? I need to finish my schooling. I need a job. I need friends. i can narrow it down to thouse thre things. I did something bad today. It wasnt my business to do it, but i read it anyway. I wish i had selfless devotion to one thing. I would. But i would never force myself on someone like it seemed she was doing. Or perhaps that was my jelous judgment. When did i start to need cigaretts? When did i hate being alone so much? When did i begin to fear deep water. I couldent find the bottom. The safty of the bottom. Where have my risk gone? In to making stupid decisions?
I would die for you
I would die for you
I've been dying just to feel you by my side
To know that you're mine
I will cry for you
I will cry for you
I will wash away your pain with all my tears
And drown your fear
I will pray for you
I will pray for you
I will sell my soul for something pure and true
Someone like you
See your face every place that I walk in
Hear your voice every time that I'm talking
You will believe in me
And I will never be ignored
I will burn for you
Feel pain for you
I will twist the knife and bleed my aching heart
And tear it apart
I will lie for you
Beg and steal for you
I will crawl on hands and knees until you see
You're just like me
Violate all the love that I'm missing
Throw away all the pain that I'm living
You will believe in me
And I can never be ignored
I would die for you
I would kill for you
I will steal for you
I'd do time for you
I will wait for you
I'd make room for you
I'd sail ships for you
To be close to you
To be part of you
Cause I believe in you
I believe in you
I would die for you
And yet. I can promise to leave you alone, just ask me to and i will.