let it all drop

[ai_13_7000]

I've kept my mind clear of her the best i can.
i am trying to forget all about her lips because they're not mine anymore.
i am trying to forget the love i had for her and how the way her face made me feel so warm.
but when i go to bed she is fucking there to wake me up
i want to sleep, but my god damn mind is too restless to allow it.
and every dream i

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[jilldohertyyyyy]

I wanted to call you back last night but my mom said I'm no longer allowed to speak with you. She took away my phone and I literally had to beg her not to call you last night because she heard the message you left me and wanted you to leave me alone. I didn't want it to come to that. I didn't want to lose communication with you, but it seems I have no other choice. Yes, I chose this path to go on but it wasn't an easy choice. I still think about you often, almost all the time. I don't want to say that i'm sorry things are the way they are because I know you won't believe me but I am. I didn't want to get attached to another human being for an extremely long time after being with you, but sometimes you don't chose those things. I didn't lie to you when I told you I was in love with you, because I loved you with every inch of my body. I don't know why that wasn't enough and why that didn't save us but it happened. I didn't want to have the last words you ever say to me be 'I despise you' but thats something I have to accept. If that was

[ai_13_7000]

i really hope one day you will stop lying to yourself and grow up.

[jilldohertyyyyy]

I'm done being civil towards you if you're just going to be an ass. I'm pretty sure you need to take a nice long look in the mirror.

[ai_13_7000]

civil? you've never even faced me jill, you just left and pretended that i never existed.

[jilldohertyyyyy]

I've never faced you? I went to your house Tom, and nothing was said that couldn't have been said over the phone. It hurt a lot to see you. I'm not pretending you don't exsist, believe me I think about you more than I should. I just didn't want to tell you what I was thinking or how upset I am because I didn't want you to think that meant I wanted to get back together. I don't really know whats going on in my head, but until I do I want to stay clear of you because I think it will just further hurt the both of us.