if anything could feel this real forever?
I miss Kingston. I'm not even going to lie, Ottawa is starting to get on my nerves. I can't really judge with a great deal of certainty what exactly draws me to that little prison infested town, full of well old folks and ex cons. Who knows. Is it a push or a pull factor which draws me there? Is it that i will always equate Ottawa to the awkward teenage years of high school. Not exactly knowing where my place in life lies. Perhaps its living with my parents again, it certainly does not help that they are trying to re-establish themselves as authority figures. And everyone knows my opinions of authority figures. Maybe its due to the fact that university, and thus Kingston, was a great period of growth for me. Personal growth and growth in my tolerance to alcohol. I love the friends I have here, they are some of the people i will be closest with for the rest of my life. But part of me realizes that no matter what I do they will always view me the way they viewed me in high school. I once heard that the way you spend the first 5 minutes with someone will define your relationship with them for the rest of your life. I am finding that there might be some credence to that. Maybe its simply that the friends I have in Kingston think I am way cooler than I really am. So I have no idea why I like that place, but i do know I love it there.