Okay, I haven't decided what I'm going to write about. Oh yeah, this is a good story. Everyone has that one person, that person that they will never get over no matter how hard they try. I actually got my person for a while last year (miracle of all miracles, since guys never pick me) and I was ecstatic. But he was an asshole a few times (correction--quite a few times) and I was determined to forget about him, or at least stay angry at him forever and not have to deal with my heart and its persistent feelings. A couple weeks ago I proclaimed myself officially over him: I even took his screen name off buddy alert, which was a pretty big step for me. Last nite I realized, though, that whenever I'm online I still intently watch the little screen name pop-ups in case his appears. I still hope that everytime he sees me my hair looks right and I have makeup on. Last nite he IMed me and despite what my attempts at a grudge were telling me, I had to talk to him again. Hoping that just maybe it would be a good conversation. And at the beginning, guess what he said. Never mind how it came up, but he told me that he felt like he did not know me at all and had gone to school with me for years and never bothered to find out or remember anything specific. It's amazing how the person that you knew so well--that you put your time and effort into getting to know, can just crush you with one sentence. I've saved every conversation I've had with him online and can probably recall any fact he told me in an late night phone call. It's amazing how that special person can give you a sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach because of a sentence followed by "lol." I tell everyone about my new crushes just to get away from admitting I've liked him for years. It's too bad I am such a sucker for his eyes.
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except I didn't leave that comment
BUT OMFG! that decribes me hahaha
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