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ok, so time for a real update on here. SO I have been looking at all my past friends, relationships and everything. I realize that I get too comfortable with people when I have them in my life. Because I seem to miss everyone far more then they seem to miss me. Im not trying to get any sympathy from people. I just look at everyone that I used to have, and it makes me miserable to know that they are past tense. But then they seem so happy to be moved on. Maybe I need to change a lot of things. I dont need people to miss me, I just want to feel like I mean more than a momentary satisfaction, or whatever. I guess this is just my vent to people that I feel like when Im out of sight, Im out of mind. You dont have to change anything, or feel bad for me, or whatever. I just feel like Im the only one that holds onto the people I let in my life. But its whatever. Hopefully I can get out of the pathetic funk. Love yas, ~Derek