:(
i just realized something.
i hate being used.
i saw someone yesterday and i realized that he just used me for his benefit. and i'm slowly losing him.
he doesn't care.
i honestly don't know if anyone cares anymore.
i hate feeling like this.
i'm losing two people i care about so much.
and it hurts so bad.
i put all of my trust into them, and they turned around and shoved it in my face.
actually i could say that about three people.
i know i can't go through life never trusting people but i have had so many bad experiences with people that its hard for me to trust anyone, i just automatically think everyone is going to use you.
its sad that i only have a handful of people left.
thank god for linds,mickey, katie, katy, andrew, and scott.
you guys make me so happy.
i guess i have to realize that people change.
but its hard
i hate being used.
i saw someone yesterday and i realized that he just used me for his benefit. and i'm slowly losing him.
he doesn't care.
i honestly don't know if anyone cares anymore.
i hate feeling like this.
i'm losing two people i care about so much.
and it hurts so bad.
i put all of my trust into them, and they turned around and shoved it in my face.
actually i could say that about three people.
i know i can't go through life never trusting people but i have had so many bad experiences with people that its hard for me to trust anyone, i just automatically think everyone is going to use you.
its sad that i only have a handful of people left.
thank god for linds,mickey, katie, katy, andrew, and scott.
you guys make me so happy.
i guess i have to realize that people change.
but its hard