stressed to the max.
i am so stressed. i don't know what to do. I feel hopeless about my future. I feel so behind and stupid when really I'm way ahead. I haven't filled out any forms to apply for college, scholarships, anything. I haven't even looked into colleges, let alone what I want to major in. I have no clue where I'm goin to go and I'm beginning to look down on college thinking that it will be a waste of time.
Being in virtual, I missed too many opportunities. I lost a lot of people by being secluded in the room all day, I won't be getting the long awaited senior year, and there are too many days of school that I failed to skip. I didn't even get to go out and get plastered after giving blood. I won't be participating in any 'senior skip days' and I haven't attended any college visits.
I only found out that I will be graduating early like a week ago. I'm beginning to wish I wouldn't graduate early. I could save a class or two for next year, but my GPA would definitely fall. I'd end up getting myself into more trouble, like the beginning of this year. Sometimes I just wish I could go back to regular school, graduate with the 07's like I planned, and keep up with all the people I've lost touch with. I think about it, and I only have a handful of friends that I go out with anymore. I'm used to the same faces everyday, spending 3 hours a day with them and only them.
It just sucks. I try to live without regrets, but when it comes to this year, I think I'm beginning to regret it. the more i think about it, the more tears come. I just want my life back, let alone a life.
Being in virtual, I missed too many opportunities. I lost a lot of people by being secluded in the room all day, I won't be getting the long awaited senior year, and there are too many days of school that I failed to skip. I didn't even get to go out and get plastered after giving blood. I won't be participating in any 'senior skip days' and I haven't attended any college visits.
I only found out that I will be graduating early like a week ago. I'm beginning to wish I wouldn't graduate early. I could save a class or two for next year, but my GPA would definitely fall. I'd end up getting myself into more trouble, like the beginning of this year. Sometimes I just wish I could go back to regular school, graduate with the 07's like I planned, and keep up with all the people I've lost touch with. I think about it, and I only have a handful of friends that I go out with anymore. I'm used to the same faces everyday, spending 3 hours a day with them and only them.
It just sucks. I try to live without regrets, but when it comes to this year, I think I'm beginning to regret it. the more i think about it, the more tears come. I just want my life back, let alone a life.