introducing...
hello loves. so im jewish and my family keeps calling at every hour of every day to ask me and mostly my parents "whats the rosie update???". because suddenly im fascinating. now, as tends to happen, whilst i was reasonably behaved, there was considerably less interest in my fabulous life. but now i am a Hotbed of controversy mostly because of the events of the past couple of month. and as i learned from the E channel, the good girls gone bad often become the next it girls. so this could be a positive step. so you are probably wondering, where did all this controversy begin. I'll tell you, it began earlier than everyone likes to think.
me and my dad have fought since i was a little kid about one thing. school. its quite literally the bane of my existence. i have never been a hardworking student. ill tell you why, in example form.
PROOF. last year. algebra 2. ms shrager. heinous evil woman. i was failing. i blew the tests cause i didnt do the homework and i didnt listen in class. i needed above an 80 on the final just to pass the class. i had 3 one hour sessions with a tutor, where she taught me all of algebra 2. i got an 85.
now heres the question. if i can learn 85% of algebra 2 in 3 hours, what was i doing sitting in class for 10 months?
basically the point is, im smart. so i feel like i have a getoutofjailfreecard, as in, my dad should cut me some slack.
his perspective is, im smart, so i should be getting straight A's.
so the drama with my parents was getting worse about mid january. the other thing i fight with them about is my boyfriend, wang. he is, to be succinct, not exactly what my white jewish parents had in mind for me as a first real love. meanwhile i feel like they are being racist snobs and wangs a good guy who they might actually like if they gave him a chance.
the third issue is of course, lying. i cant tell my parents the truth, because they punish me. but they expect me to only do things i can tell them about, which is a little ridiculous, as i am a teenager and they disapprove of so much.
these all came to a head in the middle of the second week in january. things were tense because the weekend before they had allowed me to return early from a bat mitzvah we were at, to go to jakes show and work on my paper. of course, they bought me the cheap ticket, so i missed jakes show. but i went to an afterparty with my boyfriend, a lot of our friends were there but it wasnt like wild or anything, and then 6 of us went back to crash at my house. which of course wasnt allowed but i mean, what am i gonna do? say no? so yeah cedric, rory, krissy, justin, me and wang went back to my house. we hung out for a little, and then wang and i went up to bed. cedric, while we were upstairs puked in my living room. we cleaned it up the next morning, but the room smelled like puke.
then in the next week, my math teacher called to claim i hadnt done a single homework assignment all semester. (slightly true. i had done some of them, but im not sure i turned them in.) my parents flipped out and took my phone away, meaning i couldnt talk to wang. i decided to punish them by staying out all weekend, proving to them that really, it was better for them if i had my phone than if i didnt. it was an ok weekend, we went a couple of bad parties, we hung out in pastorius. it was pretty average. only then my mom sent me this email telling me she was sick of working with me, and that things were going to be harsh when i got home. i decided that therefore, i wouldnt go home. that week, i started staying at wangs. i was still going to school, i even got a job. the problem was, i missed some days of school, so school was unhappy, and the other problem was drugs.
at first, it was fairly normal stuff, i tripped with my friends, we smoked some. it wasnt a big deal. only like two weeks later we went on this enormous binge, which was very stupid. in the space of five days we:
snorted molly, ate shrooms twice, snorted klonopins, perks, oxycodone and ambien, and smoked a lot.
i missed school on monday, and then tuesday when i went in seemed like a normal day.
only then on wednesday, the headmaster called me into his office. he said:
i looked bad. (i did, but it was mostly from stress and sleep deprivation, and i wasnt eating enough. it wasnt, contrary to popular belief, because drugs were scarring me).
he wanted to do a psych eval and a drug test to see if i was ok. then ms vagoda, the guidance counselor, said "would you pass a drug test?"
and i, being a dumbass, was honest and said "no."
akiba hebrew academy has a no tolerance policy so i was expelled.
they called in my parents to come and get me.
they claimed they would just take me to the doctor and back to wangs.
THEY LIED.
it turns out my parents had hacked into my email account. so they know everything ive done.
they told all that stuff to the doctor and the doctor flipped out.
(SOMETHING TO KNOW: when i am calm and collected, no doctor would ever call me insane. the problem is, when im very sad and feel betrayed, i could look insane. when the doctor saw me, i was bawling cause i was kicked out of my school, and then i was yelling at my parents for betraying me like that. i looked a lot more messed up than i am.)
the doctor told them to take me to get locked up. they took me to friends mental hospital and they tried to get me in a psych ward for 5 days. they wouldnt even let me be alone to call my boyfriend. i had to talk to him while they were right there, listening to me. at the pysch ward they took my belt because they thought i would hang myself with it. i have never felt so horrible in my life. luckily, i composed myself by the time we were in there, and then i got to go talk to one of the therapists. she was good, and she realized i wasnt crazy and didnt need to be there.
my parents next goal was to try and get me in rehab and on medication for depression and social anxiety. that fell through too.
but i went to family therapy with them, and we actually are making some progress. i had to move out of wangs, and i was staying with family friends for a while, but last week i moved home.
its mostly been good.
the only problems that have arisen is 1) wang slept in my room (SHOCK HORROR), and 2) pre-emptively, we are already fighting about school. hopefully at upattinas, where it looks like im going, im not going to have as much trouble.
so here i am, presently, at home, bored and alone, not on drugs and not in school.
keep tuned for more updates on my er...fabulous life.
me and my dad have fought since i was a little kid about one thing. school. its quite literally the bane of my existence. i have never been a hardworking student. ill tell you why, in example form.
PROOF. last year. algebra 2. ms shrager. heinous evil woman. i was failing. i blew the tests cause i didnt do the homework and i didnt listen in class. i needed above an 80 on the final just to pass the class. i had 3 one hour sessions with a tutor, where she taught me all of algebra 2. i got an 85.
now heres the question. if i can learn 85% of algebra 2 in 3 hours, what was i doing sitting in class for 10 months?
basically the point is, im smart. so i feel like i have a getoutofjailfreecard, as in, my dad should cut me some slack.
his perspective is, im smart, so i should be getting straight A's.
so the drama with my parents was getting worse about mid january. the other thing i fight with them about is my boyfriend, wang. he is, to be succinct, not exactly what my white jewish parents had in mind for me as a first real love. meanwhile i feel like they are being racist snobs and wangs a good guy who they might actually like if they gave him a chance.
the third issue is of course, lying. i cant tell my parents the truth, because they punish me. but they expect me to only do things i can tell them about, which is a little ridiculous, as i am a teenager and they disapprove of so much.
these all came to a head in the middle of the second week in january. things were tense because the weekend before they had allowed me to return early from a bat mitzvah we were at, to go to jakes show and work on my paper. of course, they bought me the cheap ticket, so i missed jakes show. but i went to an afterparty with my boyfriend, a lot of our friends were there but it wasnt like wild or anything, and then 6 of us went back to crash at my house. which of course wasnt allowed but i mean, what am i gonna do? say no? so yeah cedric, rory, krissy, justin, me and wang went back to my house. we hung out for a little, and then wang and i went up to bed. cedric, while we were upstairs puked in my living room. we cleaned it up the next morning, but the room smelled like puke.
then in the next week, my math teacher called to claim i hadnt done a single homework assignment all semester. (slightly true. i had done some of them, but im not sure i turned them in.) my parents flipped out and took my phone away, meaning i couldnt talk to wang. i decided to punish them by staying out all weekend, proving to them that really, it was better for them if i had my phone than if i didnt. it was an ok weekend, we went a couple of bad parties, we hung out in pastorius. it was pretty average. only then my mom sent me this email telling me she was sick of working with me, and that things were going to be harsh when i got home. i decided that therefore, i wouldnt go home. that week, i started staying at wangs. i was still going to school, i even got a job. the problem was, i missed some days of school, so school was unhappy, and the other problem was drugs.
at first, it was fairly normal stuff, i tripped with my friends, we smoked some. it wasnt a big deal. only like two weeks later we went on this enormous binge, which was very stupid. in the space of five days we:
snorted molly, ate shrooms twice, snorted klonopins, perks, oxycodone and ambien, and smoked a lot.
i missed school on monday, and then tuesday when i went in seemed like a normal day.
only then on wednesday, the headmaster called me into his office. he said:
i looked bad. (i did, but it was mostly from stress and sleep deprivation, and i wasnt eating enough. it wasnt, contrary to popular belief, because drugs were scarring me).
he wanted to do a psych eval and a drug test to see if i was ok. then ms vagoda, the guidance counselor, said "would you pass a drug test?"
and i, being a dumbass, was honest and said "no."
akiba hebrew academy has a no tolerance policy so i was expelled.
they called in my parents to come and get me.
they claimed they would just take me to the doctor and back to wangs.
THEY LIED.
it turns out my parents had hacked into my email account. so they know everything ive done.
they told all that stuff to the doctor and the doctor flipped out.
(SOMETHING TO KNOW: when i am calm and collected, no doctor would ever call me insane. the problem is, when im very sad and feel betrayed, i could look insane. when the doctor saw me, i was bawling cause i was kicked out of my school, and then i was yelling at my parents for betraying me like that. i looked a lot more messed up than i am.)
the doctor told them to take me to get locked up. they took me to friends mental hospital and they tried to get me in a psych ward for 5 days. they wouldnt even let me be alone to call my boyfriend. i had to talk to him while they were right there, listening to me. at the pysch ward they took my belt because they thought i would hang myself with it. i have never felt so horrible in my life. luckily, i composed myself by the time we were in there, and then i got to go talk to one of the therapists. she was good, and she realized i wasnt crazy and didnt need to be there.
my parents next goal was to try and get me in rehab and on medication for depression and social anxiety. that fell through too.
but i went to family therapy with them, and we actually are making some progress. i had to move out of wangs, and i was staying with family friends for a while, but last week i moved home.
its mostly been good.
the only problems that have arisen is 1) wang slept in my room (SHOCK HORROR), and 2) pre-emptively, we are already fighting about school. hopefully at upattinas, where it looks like im going, im not going to have as much trouble.
so here i am, presently, at home, bored and alone, not on drugs and not in school.
keep tuned for more updates on my er...fabulous life.