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[ahotshowerscene]

if you need me
i'm out and on the parkway,
patient and waiting for headlights,
dressed in a fashion that's fitting to the
inconsistencys of my moods
it's times like these where silence means everything
and no one is to know about this
it's a campaign of distraction
and revisionist history
oh, it's a shame I don't think that they'll notice
it's a shame I doubt they even care
no one is to know about this

don't let me down

but whatever I have gotten myself into
maybe has been slicing inches from my waist
it's my fist vs. the bottle
(and thank god you weren't there...)
and that's how bad could this hurt
or against I won't feel a thing
i'll tell you all about it
it's just not working out
not working out
this is why we were taught so much better than this

this is what living like this does..

getting your heart crushed hurts like hell.. even moreso when u were warned to begin with.

this trip is making me crazy. i miss home so much and have vowed never to gripe about coral springs again.. although i probably will.

i am living life as much as possible once i return.

megan: get ready.. geee!

irina: muahmuahmuah- yogabeachsushinaptalkplasterforeigness

gabbi: u don't even realize i'm gone do u?

nina: oh, yeah? and.. those cd's are [still] on their way =)

tati: RIP.. i mean, i'll miss u as a chem partner =*( stay in touch or else!

we're freaking having a slumber party when i get back.. and i'm makin' waffles!