oh christine im not mad... but you can have ryan he may be hot but i cant take much more of him... hes pushing me over the edge... seriously... i mean he takes everything out on me... i was finally happy to talk to him today cause a. he wasnt dead and b. i hadnt talk to him in a long time! lol yea this is our convo:
flocks of SOCKS: omg youre alive i was just looking for your death in the paper!!!
mischifdrummer22: i wish i wasnt
flocks of SOCKS: my friend convinced me you died
flocks of SOCKS: how are you?
mischifdrummer22: who?
flocks of SOCKS: a bunch of them
mischifdrummer22: why?
flocks of SOCKS: I DONT KNOW
flocks of SOCKS: but how are you
mischifdrummer22: shit like always, ive been takin tons of tests and stuff and dont have my comp and havent been home thats why i havent been on
flocks of SOCKS: awww
flocks of SOCKS: im sorry mischifdrummer22: its not a big deal
mischifdrummer22: but if u and ur friends want to see us play
tommorrow night we play first i think at like 7
flocks of SOCKS: oh jeez we thought it was 730 flocks of SOCKS: okie dokie flocks of SOCKS: yea were gonna come and se you flocks of SOCKS: kids
mischifdrummer22: i dont know why u want to see us play, we suck anyways
flocks of SOCKS: ummm ok? flocks of SOCKS: do you not want me to come?
mischifdrummer22: if u want to u can, i dunno... i just dont really feel like being anymore, im sorry if im not some happy person
flocks of SOCKS: dont be sorry you cant help who you are
mischifdrummer22 is away at 4:03:39 PM.
flocks of SOCKS: yea bye to you too
Auto response from mischifdrummer22: eating dinner....
sorry be back in a few
mischifdrummer22 returned at 4:15:15 PM.
mischifdrummer22: yea ill talk to u later maybe or something i dunno
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flocks of SOCKS: what?
flocks of SOCKS: whats wrong with you? flocks of SOCKS: are you mad at me or something? flocks of SOCKS: did i do something wrong?
mischifdrummer22: no i have to go though
flocks of SOCKS: fine mischifdrummer22: u didnt do anything im sorry im a fucking prick
flocks of SOCKS: whats WRONG WITH YOU? flocks of SOCKS: WHY ARE YOU BEING LIKE THIS?
mischifdrummer22: alot of things, and alot of stress... and im sick of everything.... i just dont want to be anymore, im sick of being alone, never doin anything fun, i just dont give a fuck about anything anymore, i just want to be done with everything
flocks of SOCKS: WELL IM SORRY THEN mischifdrummer22: for what? u didnt do anything
flocks of SOCKS: im sorry i can be enough for you, im sorry i dont "take your breath away", im sorry im not fun, im sorry for even thinking that i could ever be enough for you
mischifdrummer22: nothing is really fun, life is not fun, there is nothin here for me
Auto response from flocks of SOCKS: My eyes burn from these tears You think i'd learn over these years Good things won't last forever So what the hell am I suppose to do? You only wanted the things I couldn't give to you So take take everything and leave me scrambling Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place
hey megan its elizabeth- dont let these dicks get you down- they have some "how to piss off girls 101" manual we just havent gotten a hold of yet. I hope this all works out and hey the last away message- what song is that???
OMG IT TOOK ME FOREVER TO FIGURE OUT WHO YOU ARE!!!! lol yea most def guys are gay especially the hot ones!! yea that song is from matchbook romance its called my eyes burn nice song... hey im gonna add you mmkay? add me back?
*u never knew.. everything i learned about [breaking] hearts i learned from u*ahotshowersceneMarch 4 2004, 03:36:37 UTC
awwww my girls are bonding. yaaaay!
megan: i can definately tell this kid's really depressed, which may be why he's acting like this. i know that when i'm really depressed i get angry because i feel like no one around me understands what i'm feeling. when they try to talk to me i just get more angry for some reason and end up pushing them away, which is not what i had intended to do. do i think he was right to be like that to u? no. but i do understand what may be going on in his head. if the relationship is taking too much out of u i think u should tell him that your friendship needs a break. but if u think all of this is worth it and you're strong enough to realize that it's not him talking it's the depression then i think u should stick by his side and be a friend trying not to get even more emotionally involved than u already are (if that's possible).
i'm sorry you've gotten the impression that you're "not enough". all i have to say about that is that: -you're the funniest person i know and always make me smile -you're hot as hell and i want a piece of your ass. no no.. okay maybe. no, but you're amazingly beautiful and everybody knows it. -i love u and damnit that should count for something!
just because 1 person may not feel like these are some of the traits he wants in a partner doesn't mean you're worthless! it just means that someone just as awesome or even better is waiting for u through the next door!
:side note: yes, i realize i didn't call u back.. again. i didn't get back from the chiro until 8 and then i went out to eat. i know you'll forgive me tho if i call u tonight because you're just awesome like that <3
elizabeth: we must do something soon or i may just die from a lack of u <3
Re: *u never knew.. everything i learned about [breaking] hearts i learned from u*_allieverwantedMarch 4 2004, 12:47:18 UTC
christine today was horrible i seriously had the worst day i offically hate ryan and you make it so hard for me to be mad at him... lol when i read that stuff that you said about me i seriously started crying...
flocks of SOCKS: omg youre alive i was just looking for your death in the paper!!!
mischifdrummer22: i wish i wasnt
flocks of SOCKS: my friend convinced me you died
flocks of SOCKS: how are you?
mischifdrummer22: who?
flocks of SOCKS: a bunch of them
mischifdrummer22: why?
flocks of SOCKS: I DONT KNOW
flocks of SOCKS: but how are you
mischifdrummer22: shit like always, ive been takin tons of tests and stuff and dont have my comp and havent been home thats why i havent been on
flocks of SOCKS: awww
flocks of SOCKS: im sorry
mischifdrummer22: its not a big deal
mischifdrummer22: but if u and ur friends want to see us play
tommorrow night we play first i think at like 7
flocks of SOCKS: oh jeez we thought it was 730
flocks of SOCKS: okie dokie
flocks of SOCKS: yea were gonna come and se you
flocks of SOCKS: kids
mischifdrummer22: i dont know why u want to see us play, we suck anyways
flocks of SOCKS: ummm ok?
flocks of SOCKS: do you not want me to come?
mischifdrummer22: if u want to u can, i dunno... i just dont really feel like being anymore, im sorry if im not some happy person
flocks of SOCKS: dont be sorry you cant help who you are
mischifdrummer22 is away at 4:03:39 PM.
flocks of SOCKS: yea bye to you too
Auto response from mischifdrummer22: eating dinner....
sorry be back in a few
mischifdrummer22 returned at 4:15:15 PM.
mischifdrummer22: yea ill talk to u later maybe or something i dunno
Auto response from flocks of SOCKS: I am trying to re-encarnate elvis. leave me a message
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flocks of SOCKS: what?
flocks of SOCKS: whats wrong with you?
flocks of SOCKS: are you mad at me or something?
flocks of SOCKS: did i do something wrong?
mischifdrummer22: no i have to go though
flocks of SOCKS: fine
mischifdrummer22: u didnt do anything im sorry im a fucking prick
flocks of SOCKS: whats WRONG WITH YOU?
flocks of SOCKS: WHY ARE YOU BEING LIKE THIS?
mischifdrummer22: alot of things, and alot of stress... and im sick of everything.... i just dont want to be anymore, im sick of being alone, never doin anything fun, i just dont give a fuck about anything anymore, i just want to be done with everything
flocks of SOCKS: WELL IM SORRY THEN
mischifdrummer22: for what? u didnt do anything
flocks of SOCKS: im sorry i can be enough for you, im sorry i dont "take your breath away", im sorry im not fun, im sorry for even thinking that i could ever be enough for you
mischifdrummer22: nothing is really fun, life is not fun, there is nothin here for me
Auto response from flocks of SOCKS: My eyes burn from these tears
You think i'd learn over these years
Good things won't last forever
So what the hell am I suppose to do?
You only wanted the things I couldn't give to you
So take take everything and leave me scrambling
Reaching for something that wasn't there in the first place
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megan: i can definately tell this kid's really depressed, which may be why he's acting like this. i know that when i'm really depressed i get angry because i feel like no one around me understands what i'm feeling. when they try to talk to me i just get more angry for some reason and end up pushing them away, which is not what i had intended to do. do i think he was right to be like that to u? no. but i do understand what may be going on in his head. if the relationship is taking too much out of u i think u should tell him that your friendship needs a break. but if u think all of this is worth it and you're strong enough to realize that it's not him talking it's the depression then i think u should stick by his side and be a friend trying not to get even more emotionally involved than u already are (if that's possible).
i'm sorry you've gotten the impression that you're "not enough". all i have to say about that is that:
-you're the funniest person i know and always make me smile
-you're hot as hell and i want a piece of your ass. no no.. okay maybe. no, but you're amazingly beautiful and everybody knows it.
-i love u and damnit that should count for something!
just because 1 person may not feel like these are some of the traits he wants in a partner doesn't mean you're worthless! it just means that someone just as awesome or even better is waiting for u through the next door!
:side note: yes, i realize i didn't call u back.. again. i didn't get back from the chiro until 8 and then i went out to eat. i know you'll forgive me tho if i call u tonight because you're just awesome like that <3
elizabeth: we must do something soon or i may just die from a lack of u <3
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