Browsing thro old mail and came across an old convo with Travis. Weird how I loved him and hate now.
xdNightStalker [4:32 AM]: Hey babe.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:32 AM]: Hey Travis.
xdNightStalker [4:33 AM]: What up?
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:33 AM]: nm u?
xdNightStalker [4:33 AM]: nm what you sill doing up?
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:34 AM]: Well I was writing something and looking at this kids website he's getting a book published. and im getting tired now, lol. sleep!
xdNightStalker [4:34 AM]: lol
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:35 AM]: What?!
xdNightStalker [4:35 AM]: I knew you'd be tired now, youre a damn vampire or something
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:35 AM]: lol
xdNightStalker [4:36 AM]: It's true, Kay.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:36 AM]: Okay well ok
xdNightStalker [4:38 AM]: Wh did you stop talking? Who else you talkin to?
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:38 AM]: How did you know that?
xdNightStalker [4:38 AM]: Just a guess a good one by the looks of it
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:39 AM]: mmhhhmmm
xdNightStalker [4:39 AM]: Aint you tired?
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:39 AM]: I just told you yes
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:39 AM]: Are you up because of Grace?
xdNightStalker [4:39 AM]: Yeah just came on to check my mail.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:40 AM]: And then you saw me on and IMed me?
xdNightStalker [4:40 AM]: We know each other to well, Kay.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:40 AM]: lol
xdNightStalker [4:40 AM]: I gotta scram. GO TO BED. Now.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:41 AM]: I still have stuff to do Mr. Bossey
xdNightStalker [4:41 AM]: Yeah? Like what?
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:41 AM]: Like feed Angel and clean her litter box, and wash my face brush my teeth....
xdNightStalker [4:43 AM]: Do the litter in the morning, Kay. And hurry up getting for bed, I remember from when I stayed there, you taking so long. You keep saying you need more sleep, babe, so get down to it and pick yourself up already. Quit putting it off.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:44 AM]: Bossey, bossey, bossey!
xdNightStalker [4:44 AM]: I mean it.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:44 AM]: OK, OK, fine! If I tell you I'll listen to you, will that make you happy?
xdNightStalker [4:44 AM]: Yeah it will.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:45 AM]: Good then you go to bed too.
xdNightStalker [4:45 AM]: I was already in bed, and I'm going when you sign off and you better not do that until your about to get into the bed.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:46 AM]: Err. I could just go to a website and not talk to you for awhile you know.
xdNightStalker [4:46 AM]: You better not, I'll know.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:46 AM]: Fine just give me a few, :-P
xdNightStalker [4:47 AM]: Aigh
xdNightStalker [4:47 AM]: t
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:47 AM]: lol
xdNightStalker [4:47 AM]: Later babe. I'll call you. GO TO SLEEP!
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:48 AM]: I promise. Sweet dreams. Night.
xdNightStalker [4:48 AM]: Sweet dreams to you too, babe. Sleep well. Aight?
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:48 AM]: Yup, same goes for you.
xdNightStalker [4:48 AM]: I will. TTYL. LOVE YOU.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:48 AM]: O_o Good. Night.
xdNightStalker [4:49 AM]: Night,
xdNightStalker [4:49 AM]: *.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:49 AM]: lol
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:49 AM]: Good night sleep tight dont let the bed bugs bite.
xdNightStalker [4:49 AM]: I'd rather bite you.
xdNightStalker [4:49 AM]: ;-)
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:49 AM]: lol go away now.
xdNightStalker [4:50 AM]: I am. Goodnight, Kara.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:50 AM]: Good night Travis.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:50 AM]: lol
xdNightStalker signed off at 4:50 AM
It's so funny how you're feelings toward a person can change so drastically...I used to love Travis with all my heart...and now I can't stand him. I hate him, actually. We knew each other so well when we started going out, too. We were friends before hand, when I had been with Jay. Good friends. Sometimes I miss having pointless conversations with him like this one, like we used to have all the time. We were the two bosses...my family has called me bossy ever since I was little, and he was just born that way. We were so happy...and then I remember the way we ended and it amazes me. Never would have expected such a thing from Travis...and no matter how much he still apologized, I never gave him a second chance after that. No way in fucking hell. I'm so different then I was from when this convo took place...God, almost two years ago now. Just older and more mature. I was all innocent and blind about relationships...I dunno how to explain it...just plain happy and trusting of him even after Jay...the problems didn't really start until we had been going out for a year...but it all led him to who he is now...a man-whore. Eck, I wonder how I could have dated someone like him...and then I think how he was different when we were first together. Eh, time changes people...people change themselves.
When I remember all the good times we did have, how he called me every night and we talked for hours on end, how I played with his little sister Gracie, watching him take care of Grace...and how he asked me out is a funny story I now tell. We were at the beach, and I had just broken up with Jay again, and he asked me out. I said no at first, and he kept bugging me. So I ignored him. Then all of a sudden he carried me over to the water fireman style, and then held me upside-down till I said yes...so while all the blood was rushing to my head, I said yes. And we were steadily happy for a year. And then when September of Sophomore year came...well, that was our final demise. I did go back out with him for a week, later in the year, but then we both decided it was best we didn't stay together. We were fighting all the time, and when he came to see me, I wouldn't let him touch me...and ahhh it was just a big mess. It's been months since I talked to him now, and every time I actually do talk to him, it's like uggghhhhhh. I don't know...just musing over old memories, and thinking about relationships. I let Travis go a long time ago...finding this convo just stirred up memories good and bad...and lookie here, I may have matured, but I still keep meeting sleazy dicks! I hope I meet a real decent guy someday...something my sister-in-law Tiffany told me one night in IMs still sticks with me...it was the best thing anyone's ever told me:
TiffanyMScully [11:14 PM]: yes yull get another boyfriend. Remember boys are scmucks it takes a man to win a womans heart.
TiffanyMScully [11:14 PM]: wow, im profound
TiffanyMScully [11:14 PM]: lets wax philisophocal!
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [11:15 PM]: aww thats the best thing anyone has ever said...that actually meant something to me...thanks :-)
TiffanyMScully [11:15 PM]: i like being funny!
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [11:15 PM]: lol
TiffanyMScully [11:17 PM]: so when youve teruly lost your herat to a MAN, thats when you know that u have truyly become a woman,its not a state of sexual bein g, but a stater of inner peace and acceptance and love of all that surrounds tyou that seperates u from being a girl from being a woman
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [11:17 PM]: That was deep
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [11:17 PM]: And I'm saving it :-)
Ahh, the wisdom of Tiffany, lol. That was before any of this love triangle crap started, and I thought I would never get anther boyfriend after Travis, a decent one. And I did, even for only a little bit. Shaine is a decent guy, just a little troubled. But who doesn't have their troubles? He loved me, and I'll always love him. He'll always be a part of my life...well, even if things aren't too hot with us...he'll always be a dear friend to me. And as for any other relationships I may have with guys...I'm smelling something very fishy there...actually that private journal entry was all about it...hehe all I'm gonna say is I'm not as stupid as I may seem...and as soon as I find out you're playing games with me, I'm really not such a sweet girl anymore ^_^
Eh, I'm just musing. All this is just in the past...like I said last night...I'm moving forward...and the only constant is change.
Kat
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:32 AM]: Hey Travis.
xdNightStalker [4:33 AM]: What up?
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:33 AM]: nm u?
xdNightStalker [4:33 AM]: nm what you sill doing up?
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:34 AM]: Well I was writing something and looking at this kids website he's getting a book published. and im getting tired now, lol. sleep!
xdNightStalker [4:34 AM]: lol
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:35 AM]: What?!
xdNightStalker [4:35 AM]: I knew you'd be tired now, youre a damn vampire or something
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:35 AM]: lol
xdNightStalker [4:36 AM]: It's true, Kay.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:36 AM]: Okay well ok
xdNightStalker [4:38 AM]: Wh did you stop talking? Who else you talkin to?
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:38 AM]: How did you know that?
xdNightStalker [4:38 AM]: Just a guess a good one by the looks of it
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:39 AM]: mmhhhmmm
xdNightStalker [4:39 AM]: Aint you tired?
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:39 AM]: I just told you yes
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:39 AM]: Are you up because of Grace?
xdNightStalker [4:39 AM]: Yeah just came on to check my mail.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:40 AM]: And then you saw me on and IMed me?
xdNightStalker [4:40 AM]: We know each other to well, Kay.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:40 AM]: lol
xdNightStalker [4:40 AM]: I gotta scram. GO TO BED. Now.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:41 AM]: I still have stuff to do Mr. Bossey
xdNightStalker [4:41 AM]: Yeah? Like what?
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:41 AM]: Like feed Angel and clean her litter box, and wash my face brush my teeth....
xdNightStalker [4:43 AM]: Do the litter in the morning, Kay. And hurry up getting for bed, I remember from when I stayed there, you taking so long. You keep saying you need more sleep, babe, so get down to it and pick yourself up already. Quit putting it off.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:44 AM]: Bossey, bossey, bossey!
xdNightStalker [4:44 AM]: I mean it.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:44 AM]: OK, OK, fine! If I tell you I'll listen to you, will that make you happy?
xdNightStalker [4:44 AM]: Yeah it will.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:45 AM]: Good then you go to bed too.
xdNightStalker [4:45 AM]: I was already in bed, and I'm going when you sign off and you better not do that until your about to get into the bed.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:46 AM]: Err. I could just go to a website and not talk to you for awhile you know.
xdNightStalker [4:46 AM]: You better not, I'll know.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:46 AM]: Fine just give me a few, :-P
xdNightStalker [4:47 AM]: Aigh
xdNightStalker [4:47 AM]: t
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:47 AM]: lol
xdNightStalker [4:47 AM]: Later babe. I'll call you. GO TO SLEEP!
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:48 AM]: I promise. Sweet dreams. Night.
xdNightStalker [4:48 AM]: Sweet dreams to you too, babe. Sleep well. Aight?
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:48 AM]: Yup, same goes for you.
xdNightStalker [4:48 AM]: I will. TTYL. LOVE YOU.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:48 AM]: O_o Good. Night.
xdNightStalker [4:49 AM]: Night,
xdNightStalker [4:49 AM]: *.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:49 AM]: lol
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:49 AM]: Good night sleep tight dont let the bed bugs bite.
xdNightStalker [4:49 AM]: I'd rather bite you.
xdNightStalker [4:49 AM]: ;-)
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:49 AM]: lol go away now.
xdNightStalker [4:50 AM]: I am. Goodnight, Kara.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:50 AM]: Good night Travis.
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [4:50 AM]: lol
xdNightStalker signed off at 4:50 AM
It's so funny how you're feelings toward a person can change so drastically...I used to love Travis with all my heart...and now I can't stand him. I hate him, actually. We knew each other so well when we started going out, too. We were friends before hand, when I had been with Jay. Good friends. Sometimes I miss having pointless conversations with him like this one, like we used to have all the time. We were the two bosses...my family has called me bossy ever since I was little, and he was just born that way. We were so happy...and then I remember the way we ended and it amazes me. Never would have expected such a thing from Travis...and no matter how much he still apologized, I never gave him a second chance after that. No way in fucking hell. I'm so different then I was from when this convo took place...God, almost two years ago now. Just older and more mature. I was all innocent and blind about relationships...I dunno how to explain it...just plain happy and trusting of him even after Jay...the problems didn't really start until we had been going out for a year...but it all led him to who he is now...a man-whore. Eck, I wonder how I could have dated someone like him...and then I think how he was different when we were first together. Eh, time changes people...people change themselves.
When I remember all the good times we did have, how he called me every night and we talked for hours on end, how I played with his little sister Gracie, watching him take care of Grace...and how he asked me out is a funny story I now tell. We were at the beach, and I had just broken up with Jay again, and he asked me out. I said no at first, and he kept bugging me. So I ignored him. Then all of a sudden he carried me over to the water fireman style, and then held me upside-down till I said yes...so while all the blood was rushing to my head, I said yes. And we were steadily happy for a year. And then when September of Sophomore year came...well, that was our final demise. I did go back out with him for a week, later in the year, but then we both decided it was best we didn't stay together. We were fighting all the time, and when he came to see me, I wouldn't let him touch me...and ahhh it was just a big mess. It's been months since I talked to him now, and every time I actually do talk to him, it's like uggghhhhhh. I don't know...just musing over old memories, and thinking about relationships. I let Travis go a long time ago...finding this convo just stirred up memories good and bad...and lookie here, I may have matured, but I still keep meeting sleazy dicks! I hope I meet a real decent guy someday...something my sister-in-law Tiffany told me one night in IMs still sticks with me...it was the best thing anyone's ever told me:
TiffanyMScully [11:14 PM]: yes yull get another boyfriend. Remember boys are scmucks it takes a man to win a womans heart.
TiffanyMScully [11:14 PM]: wow, im profound
TiffanyMScully [11:14 PM]: lets wax philisophocal!
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [11:15 PM]: aww thats the best thing anyone has ever said...that actually meant something to me...thanks :-)
TiffanyMScully [11:15 PM]: i like being funny!
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [11:15 PM]: lol
TiffanyMScully [11:17 PM]: so when youve teruly lost your herat to a MAN, thats when you know that u have truyly become a woman,its not a state of sexual bein g, but a stater of inner peace and acceptance and love of all that surrounds tyou that seperates u from being a girl from being a woman
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [11:17 PM]: That was deep
CoNcReTeAnGeL779 [11:17 PM]: And I'm saving it :-)
Ahh, the wisdom of Tiffany, lol. That was before any of this love triangle crap started, and I thought I would never get anther boyfriend after Travis, a decent one. And I did, even for only a little bit. Shaine is a decent guy, just a little troubled. But who doesn't have their troubles? He loved me, and I'll always love him. He'll always be a part of my life...well, even if things aren't too hot with us...he'll always be a dear friend to me. And as for any other relationships I may have with guys...I'm smelling something very fishy there...actually that private journal entry was all about it...hehe all I'm gonna say is I'm not as stupid as I may seem...and as soon as I find out you're playing games with me, I'm really not such a sweet girl anymore ^_^
Eh, I'm just musing. All this is just in the past...like I said last night...I'm moving forward...and the only constant is change.
Kat