"From this moment, you are the one..."

[ahoteluyu]

Okay, here's the conclusion. Right now, I'm with my boyfriend, that's where I really want to be, and for as long as it lasts, that's where I'm staying. I still want to talk to *him* and get all this pain sorted out, so we can just be friends again, and get on with it, you know? I want/need to hear *him* tell me why, out of his own mouth. I talked to my boyfriend last night, he called me, when I was on my way into a store, and I was all distracted while I was getting milk for my condo. Time seems to go by fast/stop when I talk to him...we can talk for literally hours on end. It's nice...there's a tenderness in our smiles at each other...and the way we held hands the morning he asked me out. And right now, I want to be here. With him. I talked to him last night about me being human and all that, and that he's my boyfriend and he doesn't need to, basically, be afraid of me. To touch me, be near me, talk to me. All that. And it went well. So, for now, that's how things are. This relationship is very new, and Brit, you're right...for right now, that's all we'll ever need. Thanks for that. See, I had to come to that conclusion myself first, and then see what you meant by that comment. It may or may not last forever...but for this moment, that's all we need. For however long it lasts. I think I was starting to honestly feel trapped by thinking ahead, you know what I mean? Like Oh My God, we're getting married tomorrow! I really need to break that habit and stay in the now. And I'm sorry I didn't talk to you...but you know me, lol. I explode on here in little spurts, lol.

At my mom's condo for a few more days, and already I miss my boyfriend and there.

Oh, well. Tomorrow I get to see my nephew. Yay!

Kat