sobriety fever
sobriety fever...enjoy
they have me locked up inside
lungs full of compassion for death
awaiting to breath in toxic
toxic fumes of shock for love
im awaiting inside, waiting
waiting to tell you something
im apart from the norm
and all is well until this
unexpectancy has occured again
when will this feeling end
trashed apart from distance, falling
freefalling from the words that kept me
these words kept me sane
they told the secret to love
but now im growing insane
no longer love from the above
this waste has drifted me from you
and i still can't even realize it
all i want is what made my mind process
i still cant feel the pain to confess
the words are splintered, torn apart inside
as all these things have swept my tide
im gazing for thoughts and ideas
and im trapped inside of this wall
and too this room of forbidden taste
symbolizes replicas of me at freefall
and im thinking, thinking once again
in the past, when two operated as one
i have chose the alocohol over you
and its not entirely why my face is red
i am furious and have ran out of it
i need more or else blood will be shed
im facading away and my mind is eroding
but im trying to keep my head from exploding
at the end of the day, for the rest of life
i have realized that the alcohol was always there
even when i chose to walk out on my wife
but somethings missing, is my heart of dispare?
but this alcohol, has it lead me nowhere
or need i get more for both lungs to share?
(im hoping if anyone got anything out of this, that the man has chosen alcohol over his life, so bad that he still doesnt realize this, for he drinks all the time. and when he is sober, he starts to learn true meaning that the alcohol isnt helping, and that he wants his life back, with his wife. but the craving has overpowered his ability to even control it.)
and too, my heart longs out for those who have suffered this from there father, who has been an abusive drunk. this goes out to all of you, this poem is for you to have, take it as a gift from me. im sorry for what you have suffered or, still are. hang in there <3 youre not alone.