This is my life
No matter how angry at him I become, I always have to recognize and accept that this is my life. I made these decisions. I have to own up to them. It's so frustrating and heart-breaking to want to love someone 100% and you can't because of they made you feel... no matter how much they've reformed. It will always seem fake. Again, I have to own up to it. Still, I didn't deserve this.