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i just can't do it anymore. i just can't. well, the shrink told me that i am ok. but am i?
i am sitting here with the sharpest knife i could find in our kitchen lying next toi me and my legs all cut up. why can't i stop. but then again, why should i? there's no one who cares anyway. all of you guys are too fucking far away. i just don't know what to do anymore. no one fucking needs me anyway. there's just no place for me in this world. i wish i would die right now. i wish i would be brave enough to kill myself right now. it would make things so much easier. i wouldn't have to disappoint anyone. i am not part of anyones life anymore anyways. there's no bloody person out there who needs me. i feel so lost...
lord give me the confidence and braveness to kill myself tonight so that i wont make anymore trouble for anyone ever again.
but first of all i need a smoke...
bye
i am sitting here with the sharpest knife i could find in our kitchen lying next toi me and my legs all cut up. why can't i stop. but then again, why should i? there's no one who cares anyway. all of you guys are too fucking far away. i just don't know what to do anymore. no one fucking needs me anyway. there's just no place for me in this world. i wish i would die right now. i wish i would be brave enough to kill myself right now. it would make things so much easier. i wouldn't have to disappoint anyone. i am not part of anyones life anymore anyways. there's no bloody person out there who needs me. i feel so lost...
lord give me the confidence and braveness to kill myself tonight so that i wont make anymore trouble for anyone ever again.
but first of all i need a smoke...
bye