Back from France now- Review on my summer holiday nightmare
ok, i must admit, in the end everything got better so nothings as bad as it seems. kinda ironic that everything got better after my brother left for his estage in Monaco, when he was the only person that i could talk to. but i admit that was before i found out that after i had a long, very personal, talk with him in the netherlands, when i visited him at college, he called my dad and told him EVERYTHING, my dad talked to my mum and told her and my mum talked to a shrink about it and was close to tears because she felt like she didn't know her own daughter anymore and that all behind my back. sounds like fun now doesn't it.
now it comes even better. may i inform you about the general situation that i found at my favourite place in the world where normally whatever is bothering me doesn't count anymore and you can just relax, have time to think, think positively. Well, it wasn't quite like that this year.
I arrived after a two week long french course in royan at the place of my dreams- to find out that my exboyfriend who had told me recently for the one and a half years that we have been split now he never stopped loving me. good start. the situation got even better when a friend of mine whom i always meet there and whom i get along with really really well (abit too well for my exboyfriend when we were still going out) and my ex met- and became friends. i should have been happy i know but would you be when you'd know that the major subject of the two of them when youre not around is= you!!!?
Well, i certainly wasn't but it was ok. sadly i went through kind of a rough phase to say it without spending much time on that subject and to make it short, i collapsed in front of all of them. completely. i really didn't want that to happen because i wanted to make them think that everything with me was just fine. didn't have the urge to have more talks. already couldn't cope with the ones with my parents.
well, my ex left and my friends friends arrived and i just somehow felt like i was in the wrong place because only two of his friends i really got along with well and the rest of them treated me like i wasn't even worth to be looked at and he was so preoccupied with them that he pretty much forgot about me. he had some pretty good reasons that i know and won't mention here because i am too lazy to type it all but they had some problems within the group and he felt responsible for the people for he was the one who made them go to france...
at the end when they were finally gone he found some time for me (surprise,surprise) and just totally collapsed into my arms. i have never seen a boy cry like that before.
sadly(?!) i had only a few hours left and i had met some really nice people whom i spent the ret of the time with (went to bed at 10am) and whom i'll see again soon if everything works out.
luckily with my ex everythings fine now so i'll probably even go to his birthday party next week well and i'll have to talk again with my friend, the surfer dude if that rings a bell, because i'm kinda disappointed and just have to figure some stuff out. and the boy could need a load of good advice so i'll do my best...
till then i'll have to deal with my parents who got friends with the idea that i might go and see a shrink because they don't know how to deal with me anymore because i "never talk to them". tried to change that because it was partially true (one time only 3 sentences in 2 days).
but yeah, the last two days were really nice and one of the girls of his group was sweet and maybe i'll meet up with her sometime together with his little sister who really ok as well (but sadly a little too young for very long nights out.)
well, i hope to hear from you all soon.
please give me some comments, maybe even some good advice, i could definately need some plus i think i deserve it because i never wrote that much in my lj ever before and btw, congrats if you got till here! =)
miss you all
Lynn
now it comes even better. may i inform you about the general situation that i found at my favourite place in the world where normally whatever is bothering me doesn't count anymore and you can just relax, have time to think, think positively. Well, it wasn't quite like that this year.
I arrived after a two week long french course in royan at the place of my dreams- to find out that my exboyfriend who had told me recently for the one and a half years that we have been split now he never stopped loving me. good start. the situation got even better when a friend of mine whom i always meet there and whom i get along with really really well (abit too well for my exboyfriend when we were still going out) and my ex met- and became friends. i should have been happy i know but would you be when you'd know that the major subject of the two of them when youre not around is= you!!!?
Well, i certainly wasn't but it was ok. sadly i went through kind of a rough phase to say it without spending much time on that subject and to make it short, i collapsed in front of all of them. completely. i really didn't want that to happen because i wanted to make them think that everything with me was just fine. didn't have the urge to have more talks. already couldn't cope with the ones with my parents.
well, my ex left and my friends friends arrived and i just somehow felt like i was in the wrong place because only two of his friends i really got along with well and the rest of them treated me like i wasn't even worth to be looked at and he was so preoccupied with them that he pretty much forgot about me. he had some pretty good reasons that i know and won't mention here because i am too lazy to type it all but they had some problems within the group and he felt responsible for the people for he was the one who made them go to france...
at the end when they were finally gone he found some time for me (surprise,surprise) and just totally collapsed into my arms. i have never seen a boy cry like that before.
sadly(?!) i had only a few hours left and i had met some really nice people whom i spent the ret of the time with (went to bed at 10am) and whom i'll see again soon if everything works out.
luckily with my ex everythings fine now so i'll probably even go to his birthday party next week well and i'll have to talk again with my friend, the surfer dude if that rings a bell, because i'm kinda disappointed and just have to figure some stuff out. and the boy could need a load of good advice so i'll do my best...
till then i'll have to deal with my parents who got friends with the idea that i might go and see a shrink because they don't know how to deal with me anymore because i "never talk to them". tried to change that because it was partially true (one time only 3 sentences in 2 days).
but yeah, the last two days were really nice and one of the girls of his group was sweet and maybe i'll meet up with her sometime together with his little sister who really ok as well (but sadly a little too young for very long nights out.)
well, i hope to hear from you all soon.
please give me some comments, maybe even some good advice, i could definately need some plus i think i deserve it because i never wrote that much in my lj ever before and btw, congrats if you got till here! =)
miss you all
Lynn