wow was i drunk last night
today was pretty all boring. i amazingly woke up without a hangover. i have to correct myself from last night. i was very drunk and looking for attatchment, james was the closest thing that i knew the best. He's a good guy, but he's got shit to straighten out. the way i was talkin last night was like i wanted him back, and i suppose since i was drunk, i did want him. everyone noticed how i was hanging on him. he's a good friend and i can't break that. i am not capable of dating for a while and last night proved that to me. my person is looking for something and someone to hold onto and I can't just go running to anyone, i need to let my heart find the right someone to fill the hole left in me by jason. That will take a long time, I just have to remind myself to take things slow, and any of my friends who are reading this who catch me moving too fast, i'd sincerely appreciate a reminder every now and then. thank you and goodnight