hey y'all
i'm on day 5 of rehab. last night i was seriously considering packing my bags and heading out the door. mostly because it was saturday night, victor was going to a few parties and i missed my family and friends. i cried myself into exhaustion and realized that since noone would put me up for the night, i didn't have much choice but to stay where i was. this morning i felt a lot better about things and ive decided to stick it out...for now. 3 1/2 weeks left is really not that long. and by my 3rd weekend i can leave for a 4-hour pass and the 4th weekend i can spend saturday night with someone. victor, obviously.
i called him at noon and told him i was staying, which he was happy to hear. same with my dad. dave is coming by after 5 pm to drop me off some cigarettes (and maybe some greenage--maybe).
i would like to complete the program, first and foremost for myself, and to prove to everyone that i can do it. and then i can get my life in order.
the reason i decided to go in is to change my approach and way of thinking when it comes to drug use and the real world. i can't remain in a fantasy world of smoke and fun...it will only lead to my early death.
thanks to everyone who has been supportive. i feel like a drama case, but things happen for a reason.
love you all,
Ahlia
i called him at noon and told him i was staying, which he was happy to hear. same with my dad. dave is coming by after 5 pm to drop me off some cigarettes (and maybe some greenage--maybe).
i would like to complete the program, first and foremost for myself, and to prove to everyone that i can do it. and then i can get my life in order.
the reason i decided to go in is to change my approach and way of thinking when it comes to drug use and the real world. i can't remain in a fantasy world of smoke and fun...it will only lead to my early death.
thanks to everyone who has been supportive. i feel like a drama case, but things happen for a reason.
love you all,
Ahlia