i'm mister lonely.
It's been a while. I think I decided I didn't care if anyone else cared about what was going on anymore. The people who do care, would ask me in person. to my face. right? yes.
but just for shits and giggles; here's a mini update. i've worked a lot. mucho mucho amounts. lots of schoolwork, lots of frustration. looots of stressin over this damn reception i am holding this thursday. ohh won't i cry if it turns to shit. buuuut moving away from that -- yeah i've been working a lot. and i got my codes[to get into master computer/registers/security] and i got keys yesterday. so i'm halfway there. got to do some more training tuesday night. worked wednesday and friday. and from 9:30 am until 11 pm today. wee for shitty saturdays. but at least i don't have to work tomorrow anymore. i haven't had a sunday off for AGES. guh. but i was basically running the show tonight - which is cool. i like learning all this stuff and getting to have authority, i have never had a position in anything to have authority. except for 8th grade i was the captain of the softball team. haha. what a joke. i have two training shifts next week, one on tuesday night and one opening shift on saturday. it shall be an early one bitches. wee for work and wee for being promoted. and last night i was like hey why not just go out tonight since i have to work at 930 tomorrow morning -- so i did. good times at lca like always. gotta love my drunk french kid. and WE'RE NOT GOING OUT. lol. love ya andrew but not that much.
so there a little under a month left of school to go. i can't even express to you people how friggin excited that makes me. it can't come soon enough. blaaah. i hate school and i just wanna go home. all this school has gave to me was more stress and heartbreak. well not entirely but it feels like it for the most part.
i'm really really tired. and i'm sure i smell sort of weird. i kinda wish erin was here. wish i coulda went to region one with my little sis and all my awesome sisters. saaad. such a long day. such a long weekend. they always seem to go by so quick and before i know it, it's monday morning at 8 am and i say to myself "here we go..."
i got this sweet napoleon shirt the other day. and a key chain. it was the same day that erin and i went out on a girlie day. best day i've had in a while. good times with erin getting her HOT piercings and olive garden and shopping aaaand everything :) ahhh twas a good thursday.
i'm losing all my sense to care. i can't really explain it. but i used to hold on to things. and hope it would come to me, or come BACK to me, and just let it hang around...and then of course i eventually grow out of it. but i am learning not to give a shit a lot quicker than "eventually". like the whole andrew[catalina] thing, i was extremely pissed and upset at first. and i hate him a little bit for it and i still avoid him like the plague and i cringe when i hear shit moving around in his room but, i dont care as much. i just deleted him out of my stuff like bl and fb and lj. it's so gay to hold on and hope for things. other things are always gunna be looked over if you just wait for something that will never ever happen especially on things that are not worth it. yeaaah.
oh and best part of my week. i finally blew my load and yelled at the noisy/loud/annoying as fuck Sezak kids for once. i just whipped around in my chair and was like SHUT UP YOU ARE PISSING ME OFF etc etc and they all looked so fucking stunned. then later they apologized. i was seriously so mad. i finally just let it build up and come out at once haha. fucking Sezak. only a few more shifts of that damn place...
ohh i love music. <3
but just for shits and giggles; here's a mini update. i've worked a lot. mucho mucho amounts. lots of schoolwork, lots of frustration. looots of stressin over this damn reception i am holding this thursday. ohh won't i cry if it turns to shit. buuuut moving away from that -- yeah i've been working a lot. and i got my codes[to get into master computer/registers/security] and i got keys yesterday. so i'm halfway there. got to do some more training tuesday night. worked wednesday and friday. and from 9:30 am until 11 pm today. wee for shitty saturdays. but at least i don't have to work tomorrow anymore. i haven't had a sunday off for AGES. guh. but i was basically running the show tonight - which is cool. i like learning all this stuff and getting to have authority, i have never had a position in anything to have authority. except for 8th grade i was the captain of the softball team. haha. what a joke. i have two training shifts next week, one on tuesday night and one opening shift on saturday. it shall be an early one bitches. wee for work and wee for being promoted. and last night i was like hey why not just go out tonight since i have to work at 930 tomorrow morning -- so i did. good times at lca like always. gotta love my drunk french kid. and WE'RE NOT GOING OUT. lol. love ya andrew but not that much.
so there a little under a month left of school to go. i can't even express to you people how friggin excited that makes me. it can't come soon enough. blaaah. i hate school and i just wanna go home. all this school has gave to me was more stress and heartbreak. well not entirely but it feels like it for the most part.
i'm really really tired. and i'm sure i smell sort of weird. i kinda wish erin was here. wish i coulda went to region one with my little sis and all my awesome sisters. saaad. such a long day. such a long weekend. they always seem to go by so quick and before i know it, it's monday morning at 8 am and i say to myself "here we go..."
i got this sweet napoleon shirt the other day. and a key chain. it was the same day that erin and i went out on a girlie day. best day i've had in a while. good times with erin getting her HOT piercings and olive garden and shopping aaaand everything :) ahhh twas a good thursday.
i'm losing all my sense to care. i can't really explain it. but i used to hold on to things. and hope it would come to me, or come BACK to me, and just let it hang around...and then of course i eventually grow out of it. but i am learning not to give a shit a lot quicker than "eventually". like the whole andrew[catalina] thing, i was extremely pissed and upset at first. and i hate him a little bit for it and i still avoid him like the plague and i cringe when i hear shit moving around in his room but, i dont care as much. i just deleted him out of my stuff like bl and fb and lj. it's so gay to hold on and hope for things. other things are always gunna be looked over if you just wait for something that will never ever happen especially on things that are not worth it. yeaaah.
oh and best part of my week. i finally blew my load and yelled at the noisy/loud/annoying as fuck Sezak kids for once. i just whipped around in my chair and was like SHUT UP YOU ARE PISSING ME OFF etc etc and they all looked so fucking stunned. then later they apologized. i was seriously so mad. i finally just let it build up and come out at once haha. fucking Sezak. only a few more shifts of that damn place...
ohh i love music. <3