silky sweat is all I am wearing...
I have had a wonderful day. I am feeling pretty good. Fucking wonderful.
Chris' mom took Jolie until Saturday. I was pretty reluctent to let them keep her for 2 nights. But I really need a break. Plus, I needed someone to watch her for New Years.
Edd (the only Edd with 2 "d's") called us today. He's coming to visit tomorrow after he sees family. We might celebrate the New Year with him and his Angelia in Baltimore. Dieselboy is spinning and its only $5. Fucking awesome.
Well we ripped VC off today. The manager was well (not aware) suspicious and there's NOT A DAMN THING he could have done about it! Fucker!
Chris and I had a good night. Shot some poole at Bob's. Felt just like the "old days". When we first hooked up. 5 years ago. I won. We ate a yummy meal our grandma made. Then watched Ssopranos and had AWESOME FUCKING SEX.
Lately, I have been having these wonderful moments... where I feel so young... almost deja vu-flashbacks but SO MUCH more meaningful... so fresh. Like an angel had kissed these moments, embedding them into my heart... creating savorable memories. The images you will relive over and over as you drift off into sleep.
I forgot what love felt like. I forgot how to live. How to feel, really feel. But I am refreshed, reminded. And this time, I will NOT forget...never.
Not that long ago, I look at my reflection in the mirror and I wasn't seeing me. I was unrecognizable. But now, I see a new me. A beautiful me. Someone somewhat familiar but improved. Someone who can be loved.
Most of my life, I have been searching, trying to uncover the true me. And I am beginning to find her. I am holding on to some stable ideas, perceptions, an outline. Foundations that will be history when I am gone.
I love you.
I love living...
Chris' mom took Jolie until Saturday. I was pretty reluctent to let them keep her for 2 nights. But I really need a break. Plus, I needed someone to watch her for New Years.
Edd (the only Edd with 2 "d's") called us today. He's coming to visit tomorrow after he sees family. We might celebrate the New Year with him and his Angelia in Baltimore. Dieselboy is spinning and its only $5. Fucking awesome.
Well we ripped VC off today. The manager was well (not aware) suspicious and there's NOT A DAMN THING he could have done about it! Fucker!
Chris and I had a good night. Shot some poole at Bob's. Felt just like the "old days". When we first hooked up. 5 years ago. I won. We ate a yummy meal our grandma made. Then watched Ssopranos and had AWESOME FUCKING SEX.
Lately, I have been having these wonderful moments... where I feel so young... almost deja vu-flashbacks but SO MUCH more meaningful... so fresh. Like an angel had kissed these moments, embedding them into my heart... creating savorable memories. The images you will relive over and over as you drift off into sleep.
I forgot what love felt like. I forgot how to live. How to feel, really feel. But I am refreshed, reminded. And this time, I will NOT forget...never.
Not that long ago, I look at my reflection in the mirror and I wasn't seeing me. I was unrecognizable. But now, I see a new me. A beautiful me. Someone somewhat familiar but improved. Someone who can be loved.
Most of my life, I have been searching, trying to uncover the true me. And I am beginning to find her. I am holding on to some stable ideas, perceptions, an outline. Foundations that will be history when I am gone.
I love you.
I love living...