A new year, same old stuff
well its now 1220 and now is officially 2006... right at 1200 I was pulling into my driveway from hanging out with my friends Mike and Jamie, instead of doing the get trashed thing or being around a bunch of people we decided to do a Family Guy marathon (Mike has first 3 seasons)... it was fun, had a great time...
but the problem is that I was yet again single on New Years, I think its actually gotten to the pathetic point... I mean except for a couple of instances I haven't been "intimate" in a physical or emotion sense since I was 21... dont get me wrong in the time since I have come close to dating multiple times and even finally lost my virginity... but I haven't actually had a girlfriend or anything remotely close...
I find myself looking back at the last few years and I find myself slapping myself upside the head over missed opprotunities and just plain ignorance... and its not helping that one of my friends is talking to me about looking up my ex (since I have only had one, most know of her at least), this idea gives me very diverse feelings and I find myself unsure about what to do... she will probably be happy to see me, but I dont know about my end (last time I saw her she was excited to see me, but I was there to tell her my grandma died, and she was engaged, though she isn't now, so I wasn't quite capable of actually dealing with her)...
this is a venting of a mild set of depressing of thoughts and emotions, so I have blocked commentary...
on a happier note, my friend Mandy came up this week, spent friday hanging out with her, which was a blast, and the weekend before got to see Max (marked in previous entry)... also got to see my old friend Dave, though he is smart to move back to the area so we can chill... I got to see most of my old crew this month and that rocks ass... trust me, this month had been a very high point in my year...
heres to next year being better
but the problem is that I was yet again single on New Years, I think its actually gotten to the pathetic point... I mean except for a couple of instances I haven't been "intimate" in a physical or emotion sense since I was 21... dont get me wrong in the time since I have come close to dating multiple times and even finally lost my virginity... but I haven't actually had a girlfriend or anything remotely close...
I find myself looking back at the last few years and I find myself slapping myself upside the head over missed opprotunities and just plain ignorance... and its not helping that one of my friends is talking to me about looking up my ex (since I have only had one, most know of her at least), this idea gives me very diverse feelings and I find myself unsure about what to do... she will probably be happy to see me, but I dont know about my end (last time I saw her she was excited to see me, but I was there to tell her my grandma died, and she was engaged, though she isn't now, so I wasn't quite capable of actually dealing with her)...
this is a venting of a mild set of depressing of thoughts and emotions, so I have blocked commentary...
on a happier note, my friend Mandy came up this week, spent friday hanging out with her, which was a blast, and the weekend before got to see Max (marked in previous entry)... also got to see my old friend Dave, though he is smart to move back to the area so we can chill... I got to see most of my old crew this month and that rocks ass... trust me, this month had been a very high point in my year...
heres to next year being better