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so whats new...everything, and yet nothing at all.computer at home is still fucking broken!! school is well school and work is well work! lol
valentines day was good. jason is amazing. i know im not dating the kid, but we have this little relationship type status. i dont know though. everyone says dat him amber. just do it. and i think in time i will, but in all actuality, i just really dont want a boyfriend at this time. hello in a first year college student that was in a 3 year relationship prior to graduating high school, and i know i cant use that as an excuse anymore. but i just really want to be able to do my own thing. if that makes any since. cause god know i love this kid to death!!! its just complicated cause if i decide to date jason i want to date him for a very...very long time. im not going to risk a relationship just for a fling. so i just need to wait. cause i fling is what i want now...i want to be able to have fun and not worry about breaking someone heart. or losing a great friendship. i know i totally went off on a limb and im rambleing but for real though. this is how i feel and i dont think people understand that. i think they just see that im totally leading this boy on when that the last thing in the world i would ever want to do. but anyways off of that randomness....back to valentines day!!! considering i absolutley HATE VALENTINES DAY!!! i had a really nice day....worked all day but then after work i went out to eat with jason! yes he took me out to eat. gave him his mushey card. and we kinda just hung out. so i told him not to get me anything big for V-day cause i dont like flashy things and spending money. anywho we get in the car to go to eat and he pulls out this bracelet box. first instinct is im really upset that he did this. so i sit there for a minute and then open the box.....in the box is one of my hairties....hahah i guess you had to be there but it was really funny!! cause he always takes my hair ties and keeps them on his wrist. so yeah after dinner we just went to his house and chilled. it was relaxing but alot of fun.
oh practice this weekend wasnt as bad or long as i thought i would be. we re-wrote the end of our show...again!!!! but i really like the ending now...me and malia still get to do our way hot pour water all over eachother thing at the end which is always a plus!! i had a psych test yesterday...i think i did pretty well...uhhh gainville this weekend....AHHHH im kinda nervous. it should be pretty good....i have been practiceing my toss turn around and i think i got it. which is was cool. but anywho i gotta get going this is getting way to long! later kids!!!
valentines day was good. jason is amazing. i know im not dating the kid, but we have this little relationship type status. i dont know though. everyone says dat him amber. just do it. and i think in time i will, but in all actuality, i just really dont want a boyfriend at this time. hello in a first year college student that was in a 3 year relationship prior to graduating high school, and i know i cant use that as an excuse anymore. but i just really want to be able to do my own thing. if that makes any since. cause god know i love this kid to death!!! its just complicated cause if i decide to date jason i want to date him for a very...very long time. im not going to risk a relationship just for a fling. so i just need to wait. cause i fling is what i want now...i want to be able to have fun and not worry about breaking someone heart. or losing a great friendship. i know i totally went off on a limb and im rambleing but for real though. this is how i feel and i dont think people understand that. i think they just see that im totally leading this boy on when that the last thing in the world i would ever want to do. but anyways off of that randomness....back to valentines day!!! considering i absolutley HATE VALENTINES DAY!!! i had a really nice day....worked all day but then after work i went out to eat with jason! yes he took me out to eat. gave him his mushey card. and we kinda just hung out. so i told him not to get me anything big for V-day cause i dont like flashy things and spending money. anywho we get in the car to go to eat and he pulls out this bracelet box. first instinct is im really upset that he did this. so i sit there for a minute and then open the box.....in the box is one of my hairties....hahah i guess you had to be there but it was really funny!! cause he always takes my hair ties and keeps them on his wrist. so yeah after dinner we just went to his house and chilled. it was relaxing but alot of fun.
oh practice this weekend wasnt as bad or long as i thought i would be. we re-wrote the end of our show...again!!!! but i really like the ending now...me and malia still get to do our way hot pour water all over eachother thing at the end which is always a plus!! i had a psych test yesterday...i think i did pretty well...uhhh gainville this weekend....AHHHH im kinda nervous. it should be pretty good....i have been practiceing my toss turn around and i think i got it. which is was cool. but anywho i gotta get going this is getting way to long! later kids!!!