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so the time is almost upon me and it feels so bittersweet. i at last move out of this town, well until next summer possibly. there are so many things i wanted to do this summer back here in merrimack, so many changes in my life that i wanted to make but getting out might be for the best.
i dont want to call it running away. cause thats not what i am trying to do. right now i have a zillion plus emotions running through me. some good some bad. there are so many things i wanted to fix. i guess i just ran out of time.
to all my friends that have stuck with me through the good the bad and the down right ugly i thank you. you made coming home something good and i hope that doesnt change when i do come back on occasion.
to the ones lost on the way. i understand. i woulda done the same if i was you. one day i hope to fix that.
im saving one for in person. hopefully ill be able to do it sometime sooner than later.
iv been working long and hard on my life. when i left for school my freshman year i really didnt party to much or drink. over the past couple years that all i can remember and most of it i dont. lately by the grace of god that has changed. i went from a kid who drank 5-6 times a week to one who drinks 1 maybe 2. i went from being 240lbs to 208 in a matter of 2 months. and i feel good. i still have some emotional shit to deal with but the physical shit that iv done to myself has gone down alot. i almost feel like a new me because i havent been this way in a while but deep down in i knows its the old me coming back just alot smarter.
i feel like not being in merrimack is one of the biggest changes in my life along with joining the army. it feels so weird to say that i am moving out. not that im leaving for a semester but moving out.
i dont want to call it running away. cause thats not what i am trying to do. right now i have a zillion plus emotions running through me. some good some bad. there are so many things i wanted to fix. i guess i just ran out of time.
to all my friends that have stuck with me through the good the bad and the down right ugly i thank you. you made coming home something good and i hope that doesnt change when i do come back on occasion.
to the ones lost on the way. i understand. i woulda done the same if i was you. one day i hope to fix that.
im saving one for in person. hopefully ill be able to do it sometime sooner than later.
iv been working long and hard on my life. when i left for school my freshman year i really didnt party to much or drink. over the past couple years that all i can remember and most of it i dont. lately by the grace of god that has changed. i went from a kid who drank 5-6 times a week to one who drinks 1 maybe 2. i went from being 240lbs to 208 in a matter of 2 months. and i feel good. i still have some emotional shit to deal with but the physical shit that iv done to myself has gone down alot. i almost feel like a new me because i havent been this way in a while but deep down in i knows its the old me coming back just alot smarter.
i feel like not being in merrimack is one of the biggest changes in my life along with joining the army. it feels so weird to say that i am moving out. not that im leaving for a semester but moving out.