Bah.

Jan 01, 2003 01:32

New Year's is an arbitrary milestone ( Read more... )

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lounge_lily January 1 2003, 05:12:48 UTC
But most of all, I have been trying not to judge the fact that no one lives with me, no one makes a home with me, no one makes love to me, and I have given birth to no one. I have so few connections to this planet it's a wonder I don't just float off of it. The feelings I'm used to tell me it's because there is something intrinsically wrong with me. I am told that this is untrue. I am holding onto this bit of information in my head, and hoping that sooner than I expect, it will come to reside in my heart.

I've just had the biggest 'me too' moment I've had in a long time. It's such slow going, this coming to know and accept yourself as you are. It's so difficult to let go of the false notions of us created and held by ourselves and others, and allow ourselves to come into our own truth. It takes such courage to begin. May the road rise with you. Happy New Year.

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Re: ahedonia January 2 2003, 02:24:19 UTC
I've just had the biggest 'me too' moment I've had in a long time.

:) You wouldn't know it from the tone of that post, but I have been fomulating my very own theory of late: 'You're never the only one.'

I'm glad to hear someone feels the same, and am sorry someone feels the same. :) Thank you for your lovely words, and may the road rise to us both.

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Re: lounge_lily January 2 2003, 02:50:25 UTC
Amen. To all of it. And I forgot to mention it before but thanks for saying it in the first place.

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Me, too *rueful smile* claudia_yvr January 13 2003, 04:22:20 UTC
I think that's why this trip I'm on right now has been such a godsend. When I'm travelling I'm using all five senses, I am constantly reminded there are very different and effective approaches to life, and I am forced to live in the moment. Most importantly, I have to loosen up because almost everything is a leap of faith, as there is a limit to how much can be planned ( ... )

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Re: Me, too *rueful smile* lounge_lily January 13 2003, 16:30:45 UTC
I find travelling to be truly freeing. An opportunity to be myself, or at least who I think I want to be. The trick is trying to hold on to that sense of knowing once you're back surrounded by people who may know you but not recognise you. If that makes any sense at all.

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Re: Me, too *rueful smile* claudia_yvr January 13 2003, 22:12:54 UTC
Yup, that makes all the sense in the world! BTW, I sent your postcard off from Thailand about a week ago, so you should get it in the next two or three weeks (their post is not the most efficient, LOL) :-)

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Re: Me, too *rueful smile* lounge_lily January 14 2003, 02:08:47 UTC
Ooh. Thanks. Very nice of you to remember!

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