i'm not cominghome- this time i'm letting go....now there's nothing to lose
I went driving today, for the first time 'for real'. I actually didn't do so bad. I hit 15mph and freaked out though. haha. it was fun. I was in such a good mood, i felt so cool. (only i knew it was just a facade :P)
I went to babysit tonight.
But not before i was called like 12 times in a matter of 20 minutes.
It's fun to call, leave a message, and hang up.. 3 seconds later, repeat the process. I was checking one message, when it beeped because he was calling AGAIN.
that is NOT normal. If someone doesn't pick up, it's normally because they're doing something that can't involve talking on the phone, it doesn't mean call 29303 times. That's psycho and stalkerish and scary. .. and alarming
I finally pick up when i'm at the shetzlers, and i start getting ridiculed and such, which i wasn't in the mood for, and i was talking to the shetzlers.. so i told him i'd call him back a little bit later.
It probably wasn't more than a half hour, and he called 3 or 4 more times in between.
how about not ever doing that again, okay? ugh.
blah blah blah, he came over.
awkwardness, bunches of lack of talking, it was just an all around good time... or something.
he kept trying to get into long talks, but that's not what happens when there's a 6 year old and 3 year old around.. so i told him this wasn't the time or place for such things, "well when is then"
anytime is better than now
more long amounts of tension and awkwardness.
it was just a bad time, he was doing his thing in thekitchen, so i decided to go play with the kids. eventually he said he was leaving, i walked him to the door
"we're not going to make this weird, okay"
i think it's been past weird for a good while now.
and sometimes you get so far it pretty much seems impossible to turn back.
once he left, i had a really good time with Nate and Pk. i adore them. :)
Watched a bunch of Degrassi, good stuff.
Talked to Sam and Rachel, i love them both.they make me laugh- and they're quite creative :cough: :) .
came home, talked to Eddie. we've decided that we rule as friends.
he's across the street, so we turned lights on and opened shades and made movements of communication to each other. haha, we're so weird. :)
and thennnn.. i got to talk to shannon, i so know why she's been my bestfriend since 5th grade.
and now Josh. :-D
so my night of friendships and conversations is complete. they're the 5 people whose opinions and advice i value the most, so it's good to know what they think.
and they all believe time is a good idea.
so "time" it will be...
now ijust need to find a way to say such things :-\
..and the courage.
ihope all is well :)
it's still really nice out.
everyone take your computers outside.
it'll be an internet camp out! :-D :)
happy 5months :\
this is long.
I went to babysit tonight.
But not before i was called like 12 times in a matter of 20 minutes.
It's fun to call, leave a message, and hang up.. 3 seconds later, repeat the process. I was checking one message, when it beeped because he was calling AGAIN.
that is NOT normal. If someone doesn't pick up, it's normally because they're doing something that can't involve talking on the phone, it doesn't mean call 29303 times. That's psycho and stalkerish and scary. .. and alarming
I finally pick up when i'm at the shetzlers, and i start getting ridiculed and such, which i wasn't in the mood for, and i was talking to the shetzlers.. so i told him i'd call him back a little bit later.
It probably wasn't more than a half hour, and he called 3 or 4 more times in between.
how about not ever doing that again, okay? ugh.
blah blah blah, he came over.
awkwardness, bunches of lack of talking, it was just an all around good time... or something.
he kept trying to get into long talks, but that's not what happens when there's a 6 year old and 3 year old around.. so i told him this wasn't the time or place for such things, "well when is then"
anytime is better than now
more long amounts of tension and awkwardness.
it was just a bad time, he was doing his thing in thekitchen, so i decided to go play with the kids. eventually he said he was leaving, i walked him to the door
"we're not going to make this weird, okay"
i think it's been past weird for a good while now.
and sometimes you get so far it pretty much seems impossible to turn back.
once he left, i had a really good time with Nate and Pk. i adore them. :)
Watched a bunch of Degrassi, good stuff.
Talked to Sam and Rachel, i love them both.they make me laugh- and they're quite creative :cough: :) .
came home, talked to Eddie. we've decided that we rule as friends.
he's across the street, so we turned lights on and opened shades and made movements of communication to each other. haha, we're so weird. :)
and thennnn.. i got to talk to shannon, i so know why she's been my bestfriend since 5th grade.
and now Josh. :-D
so my night of friendships and conversations is complete. they're the 5 people whose opinions and advice i value the most, so it's good to know what they think.
and they all believe time is a good idea.
so "time" it will be...
now ijust need to find a way to say such things :-\
..and the courage.
ihope all is well :)
it's still really nice out.
everyone take your computers outside.
it'll be an internet camp out! :-D :)
happy 5months :\
this is long.