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I met this great guy......but he's conservativly, a good 60 pounds lighter than me..
don't i wish more than anything right now that I'd gone to the gym and eat better from the start of teh summer, just as i'd told myself too..
so...yesterday, i went to the gym..and worked out for about an hour..came home and made the biggest stir fry - veggies and tofu that i will have for lunch till wednesday...
i didnt go to the gym this morning, but it wasnt a serious attempt...tomorrow morning i will try for the spin class..
i'm 237 pounds right now - according to the scale at the gym..
Today i had the biggest ice-coffee and a cranberry muffin for breakfast
lunch was the stir fry with a peach...
i've had water to drink sicne breakfast..and a poland springs sparkling water at lunch..
i know that i should think it necessary for him to accept me like this for this to work.......but most realistic realationships start on the casual level..and casualy he may not accept me for me..
we talk alot, have nothing incomming except for our senses of humor and a common shakespear quote..
but, there are other reasons to lose weight..i'm healthy...(for now) i need to stay that way...esp since the herpes thing (of which he doesnt know....how would a chemist respond to such a thing? i suppose i will find out soon enough)...the healthier i am, the less likly i am to break out...
and being over wieght and having that, im sure will crush my chances of ever having a normal sex life...
i like this guy...i have the potential of liking him alot...i need to take care of myself though, if there is a chance for anyone to ever love me, i need to make sure i'm happy with myself..
unfortunetly, i'm a little late in getting on that band wagon...all i can do is cross my fingers and hope that he likes me...despite of myself..
god, plese don't let me be jinxing myself...i want this
don't i wish more than anything right now that I'd gone to the gym and eat better from the start of teh summer, just as i'd told myself too..
so...yesterday, i went to the gym..and worked out for about an hour..came home and made the biggest stir fry - veggies and tofu that i will have for lunch till wednesday...
i didnt go to the gym this morning, but it wasnt a serious attempt...tomorrow morning i will try for the spin class..
i'm 237 pounds right now - according to the scale at the gym..
Today i had the biggest ice-coffee and a cranberry muffin for breakfast
lunch was the stir fry with a peach...
i've had water to drink sicne breakfast..and a poland springs sparkling water at lunch..
i know that i should think it necessary for him to accept me like this for this to work.......but most realistic realationships start on the casual level..and casualy he may not accept me for me..
we talk alot, have nothing incomming except for our senses of humor and a common shakespear quote..
but, there are other reasons to lose weight..i'm healthy...(for now) i need to stay that way...esp since the herpes thing (of which he doesnt know....how would a chemist respond to such a thing? i suppose i will find out soon enough)...the healthier i am, the less likly i am to break out...
and being over wieght and having that, im sure will crush my chances of ever having a normal sex life...
i like this guy...i have the potential of liking him alot...i need to take care of myself though, if there is a chance for anyone to ever love me, i need to make sure i'm happy with myself..
unfortunetly, i'm a little late in getting on that band wagon...all i can do is cross my fingers and hope that he likes me...despite of myself..
god, plese don't let me be jinxing myself...i want this