my mind hurts, forget my heart
1 John 4:18
(18) There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.
I feel like Jon is constantly in my head. I am so tired of it :(
I feel depressed a bit I guess. I had such a good time at the concert last night until the second half of the last band's set. All I could think about was him. He broke my heart and -------. I wish I never got to know him or put my trust in him. Having lost that trust >> all that's left in me is fear-its slightly uncontrollable still :(
Kudos to :
- Chris who reminded me I could have any guy I wanted ;) If I wanted that is.
- Don who told me "you better find a guy outside of impulse"
I should know that by now. It’s hard because I know what I want, but it’s not what I need,
{If we are walking uprightly, our lack of a desired thing is in itself a good indication that at this time it is not good for us, no matter what we might think to the contrary. Otherwise, this verse cannot be true. Getting what we want rather than what we need can be spiritually lethal (Revelation 3:17).} and because I can't have my way I tend to give up & give in and stop caring (about myself mostly)....conclusion= not good.
“Treat her with the most respect you have ever given any person. Because when girls put their selves in your hands they believe you won't drop them, smudge them, or forget them. When a girl is with you she sees more than there is and more than what you are now, and she sees all of what is to be.
Just make sure everything is real and genuine, k?”