This is reflection, not emo-ism
Well, I was watching videos on youtube of Anime con. People just going out and having fun with absolutely no worries. And from that I figured out why the hell I'm always so pissed. I've never had friends who just went and hung out without all the fucking drama the people I do hang out with have. Hell, I don't even hang out with them, I sit and get ignored because Josh's g/f can't stand the spotlight not being on her. And I generally get left to my thoughts.
I've never actually gotten to go do what I really want to do. I've always kept my mouth shut and went along with the flow. All the girls I liked I let stay with whoever they were with because I figured they would be happier with them and never thought about my happiness.
I was born in to the completely wrong life-style. I have no real friends. And everything I want to do takes money of the likes I'll probly never have. I hate this feeling. The feeling that I'm nothing, no one special. Like I'm worthless to everyone, and especially to myself. I'm like a bird with a broken wing. Doomed to do nothing but wait for death. I HATE THIS FEELING!
I've never actually gotten to go do what I really want to do. I've always kept my mouth shut and went along with the flow. All the girls I liked I let stay with whoever they were with because I figured they would be happier with them and never thought about my happiness.
I was born in to the completely wrong life-style. I have no real friends. And everything I want to do takes money of the likes I'll probly never have. I hate this feeling. The feeling that I'm nothing, no one special. Like I'm worthless to everyone, and especially to myself. I'm like a bird with a broken wing. Doomed to do nothing but wait for death. I HATE THIS FEELING!