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Its just not the same anymore. its so different now. It's not that i hate it. Im just not used to it yet. I have hung out with a lot of new people lately. I mean i like hangnig out with them but I miss having my really close friends. I miss knowing i will always have them there. And i know i still have them. Im just so used to hanging out with them every single day. Its like i cant have fun without them. Its like something is missing. Its just so weird.
and i wish i could find a good guy. I look in all the wrong places. and its not just that they arent just my type. I like them for completely the wrong reason. And i think that maybe i can change things but i cant and ive realized that. But im sure i would do it all again if it really came down to it. And im just being honest. And that sucks so know youre doing it all wrong but admitting that you would still do it all wrong again. I guess its just a fix for the moment. but basically its tearing me apart. i guess its better than being lonely.
and i wish i could find a good guy. I look in all the wrong places. and its not just that they arent just my type. I like them for completely the wrong reason. And i think that maybe i can change things but i cant and ive realized that. But im sure i would do it all again if it really came down to it. And im just being honest. And that sucks so know youre doing it all wrong but admitting that you would still do it all wrong again. I guess its just a fix for the moment. but basically its tearing me apart. i guess its better than being lonely.