No Laptop....
I am a fool for believing... I keep coming home hoping to find a box
from dell or gateway waiting for me... one of our friends told me that
he was thinking of sending me a laptop because he felt bad about the
whole situation and I said SURE tell him to send me one... once again
another lie...I guess this is a lesson to show me that its better that
I do not have to put up with broken promises for the rest of my life.
Either way it would have been nice to have a laptop!
I am getting glasses. I picked out really cute frames and they look okay, but in a way it will be hard for me to accept that I am four eyed. When I was younger I actually wanted glasses because I erroneously believed that they made you look smarter. Now with age I realize that intelligence has no correlation to wearing glasses, and it makes me sad to think that this is just another way that I am imperfect. Life seems to get worse and worse as you age, is there anything that actually improves?
My negative attitude has repelled quite a few of my friends. In a way I am hurt that they are trying to pass me off as a psycho nut, but I guess if I had a friend like me I would not want to hang out with me either. I don't see what is so different, I was negative before and him and I was happy for a while and now I am back to my old self. I guess they got too used to me being happy and do not want the old me back. Oh well, less friends equals less stress. If everybody hates me then I can do whatever I please and not have to worry about hurting them. Its the same issue once again as with sukhvir, I trust my friends unconditionally and nobody can give me the same respect. Unlike him I mean what I say. You put your trust and faith into people and they do not even believe you, it hurts us...I hate everybody, and everybody hates me...
I am getting glasses. I picked out really cute frames and they look okay, but in a way it will be hard for me to accept that I am four eyed. When I was younger I actually wanted glasses because I erroneously believed that they made you look smarter. Now with age I realize that intelligence has no correlation to wearing glasses, and it makes me sad to think that this is just another way that I am imperfect. Life seems to get worse and worse as you age, is there anything that actually improves?
My negative attitude has repelled quite a few of my friends. In a way I am hurt that they are trying to pass me off as a psycho nut, but I guess if I had a friend like me I would not want to hang out with me either. I don't see what is so different, I was negative before and him and I was happy for a while and now I am back to my old self. I guess they got too used to me being happy and do not want the old me back. Oh well, less friends equals less stress. If everybody hates me then I can do whatever I please and not have to worry about hurting them. Its the same issue once again as with sukhvir, I trust my friends unconditionally and nobody can give me the same respect. Unlike him I mean what I say. You put your trust and faith into people and they do not even believe you, it hurts us...I hate everybody, and everybody hates me...