"What is closer to the truth?"

[agirlonthewing]

How come when you have such an amazingly great day that couldn't be any more perfect than it was, the next day has to be such a downer? I mean, the perfect day I had last week was so fun, I couldn't say anymore about it being as wonderful as it was, but the day after obviously could never be as good, but I was at all time high. On a scale from 1 to 10 - I was about a 9.99, and the next day I had something to look forward to, but I kinda had a feeling it wasn't gonna work out, so that brought my 9.99 down to probably a 6, maybe lower. And since then it just seems to go down. These passed few days were great just hanging out at home with my best friend, don't get me wrong. But now that's over - for a really long time, and that brings my 6 down too. And then seeing certain people bring my number down even lower, like to maybe a 3. Ok, maybe not that low if we say 1 is like completely terrible, like so bad you want to kill yourself. So now we're back up to maybe a 4.5, maybe a 4.

Ugh! I really need to get over these shitty feelings, like NOW! I think going up to visit Josh, and getting away from reality by partying up my last couple days of summer will do me much much good.

Yea, that's what I need to do.
Sorry if I've been really depressing lately. I'm just not the normal happy 8.5 I usually am.

I'll be back soon.

P.S. I think my roommate is having sex in the other room. I need to pee, but I really don't want to get up to go to the bathroom for fear of hearing something I'm really not in the mood for hearing.