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Nothing has gone on with me lately. Me and Dustin are doing great and he makes me soo happy. But, besides that, for the first time in a while i cried as if for no reason. My mom puts too much pressure on me, my dad doesnt even care anymore, or seems to act like he doesnt, HELLO he let his gf just throw my shit into the closet and now i cant even get my stuff out, so I live in Southaven without all my shit. It also seems as if my own friends dont even know me anymore. All my old friends are leaving me, and all the friends I do make now they seem to fuck me over or talk about me. So Ill say this,yeah I failed the math part of my GED, at least I did my best and went back to accomplish it(and for the person that was talking shit about me failing my GED, I failed one part not the whole thing and you know who you are). I was getting coffee with Paige, Terry, Caroline, and Dustin last night and i began to tear up. Everyone else noticed something was wrong with me except for the ONE person that should know me better than everyone else.I feel like i lost my best friend. I dont feel like myself anymore. I dont feel like doing anything like i used too. I go look for a job, and go home and all i want to do is sleep. But back to the crying last night, i made Dustin take me home and we were laying in my bed and he kept asking me what was wrong and for some reason i just started crying. And then my mom had to come in and make it all worse. I didnt want to tell her anything bc she would laugh and talk shit and of course she did. I cried for like 2 hours. i just hate the way things are changing. i dont want them to. But i know i have to suck it up and face the reality and know Im not going to like the way things are but fuck it!!! I HATE THIS!