six months clean :)
Happy to say im six months clean today.
Half a year!!
Its been hard&&definately a struggle but ive made it this far.
No pot, no coke, no meth
But really, for meth ive been clean since 2011ish. I got clean all on my own. Its just sad i havent came across a M.A
Meth anonymous groups. But cocaine anonymous works.
For me pot was my gateway drug, i was high and said i have balls to do the next big thing thus Meth came into the picture. Then i decided to get clean because my exboyfriend and i broke up, got tired of getting ripped off, then my friends introduced me to cocaine.
I loved the high, i loved the fact i could be up for days and go to bed wake up, and not feel the coming down like i did with meth.
Then came in the oxycodone pills, the methadone pills. Yeah i snorted it because i didnt have the connections when i moved.
Then found out someone who did sell, so went back to using cocaine.
But wow, it sure was expensive.
The sex tho ill tell you it is NOT the same as when you are high.
But you never get that feeling back.
The drugs sure did mask how i felt about people
I was always "happy" but when the drugs were gone, i suddenly wasnt "happy" anymore.
I love and live for sobriety but the part that sucks is that i cant drink. I never had a problem with drinking but i know how easily it would be to switch over to another problem. :( Thus ;; ive lost alot of people whom i thought were my friends.
In sobriety i dont really have alot of friends. Because im too afraid..
If i mess up, what happens to them? will they just leave? but ive found a few good people i can talk to.
I enjoy having them in my life.
Im currently also going to church. Twice a week.
Sundays and wends. I love it and i wouldnt trade it for the world.
Off point - I find it funny the word YOLO
You Only Live Once.
Its not about the drugs, its not about the partying.
Its about living your life for the better, doing something good that you can look back on and be proud and say "i did that".
yeah some people are still young.
Yeah, go have fun!! but at the same time dont abuse your body or your brain cells, do something meaningful.
Im 25. theres things i wish i could of done but sorta cant now for example, i cant graduate high school because im too old for that now but what i can do is go out bust my butt and get my GED. And make my future a better one. :)
Half a year!!
Its been hard&&definately a struggle but ive made it this far.
No pot, no coke, no meth
But really, for meth ive been clean since 2011ish. I got clean all on my own. Its just sad i havent came across a M.A
Meth anonymous groups. But cocaine anonymous works.
For me pot was my gateway drug, i was high and said i have balls to do the next big thing thus Meth came into the picture. Then i decided to get clean because my exboyfriend and i broke up, got tired of getting ripped off, then my friends introduced me to cocaine.
I loved the high, i loved the fact i could be up for days and go to bed wake up, and not feel the coming down like i did with meth.
Then came in the oxycodone pills, the methadone pills. Yeah i snorted it because i didnt have the connections when i moved.
Then found out someone who did sell, so went back to using cocaine.
But wow, it sure was expensive.
The sex tho ill tell you it is NOT the same as when you are high.
But you never get that feeling back.
The drugs sure did mask how i felt about people
I was always "happy" but when the drugs were gone, i suddenly wasnt "happy" anymore.
I love and live for sobriety but the part that sucks is that i cant drink. I never had a problem with drinking but i know how easily it would be to switch over to another problem. :( Thus ;; ive lost alot of people whom i thought were my friends.
In sobriety i dont really have alot of friends. Because im too afraid..
If i mess up, what happens to them? will they just leave? but ive found a few good people i can talk to.
I enjoy having them in my life.
Im currently also going to church. Twice a week.
Sundays and wends. I love it and i wouldnt trade it for the world.
Off point - I find it funny the word YOLO
You Only Live Once.
Its not about the drugs, its not about the partying.
Its about living your life for the better, doing something good that you can look back on and be proud and say "i did that".
yeah some people are still young.
Yeah, go have fun!! but at the same time dont abuse your body or your brain cells, do something meaningful.
Im 25. theres things i wish i could of done but sorta cant now for example, i cant graduate high school because im too old for that now but what i can do is go out bust my butt and get my GED. And make my future a better one. :)