I guess, because I've basically emasculated poor Ben, that I
secretly hate all men and want them to die. Or something. Also, I'm totes up with adultery because of that whole Healing Vagina thing (even though that ultimately backfires and breaks him more). *thumbs up*
Repeat after me: Authors are not our characters. Sometimes our characters do Reprehensible Things, and sometimes our plots reflect that. This does not mean that we endorse all the attitudes or actions of our characters. Yes, even if that character is the Main Protagonist that you're supposed to be Rooting For.
I love it when people impute motives to writers based on stuff our characters do. No, really.
And I'm back to wanting to throw this thing that I've spent six months of my life on off a bridge anyway. It sucks, it's horrible, why did I ever think I could pull this off? I am a blunt instrument, not a laser scalpel. I so do not have the delicate touch required to be able to do this.