poker. Xmas. lovelife. New Years Resolutions.
I play two poker tournaments every week, in league play. usually about 40-55 people register to play. well We had regionals on Saturday and 288 qualified for it. i went out in 137th, and while that doesn't sound too great it took me literally 4 hours to make it that far, and for the first 2 hours i was big stack. but ONE bad hand can change the course of an entire tournament. anyway, I've won 3 of the last 4 tournaments we've had (outside of regional tournaments) and not to "toot" my own horn here, but i am becoming a force to be reckoned with. i never used to be much of a "power poker player" but that's the only way i feel someone can truly become a great player. and lately I've been playing my own mixture of power poker and semi tight playing, and its been paying off. even in cash games, i'm currently up over $200 playing this style of poker. and it instills confidence too, which is important. anyway enough about all of that.
Oh, looks like Christmas alone...should suck. it'll be the second year i have spent it alone. Last year was spent eating pizza rolls and playing call of duty. hah. speaking of call of duty...i keep telling myself im gonna buy a ps3 for myself for xmas, but i can never bring myself to drop that kind of money when i need to be focusing on building a bankroll, and maintenance on my car. but fuck i wanna play cod5 bad! im just afraid if i do it'll be like a black whole. and all of my free time will be spent on it. haha. but yeah..ah well all i can do is hope for a change of pace for next year. it sucks though because i consider myself an xmas "buff" (yes even though i am atheist) and im not going out doing the things i should be. like spending time with my family, or going to look at xmas lights, or watch carolers and building ginger bread houses or making cookies. for fucks sake i dont even have a tree. Even though my family is and was royally fucked up as a child, my mom still did a good job and making Christmas feel like Christmas. Even though she was a druggie whore, i have to give her that. i just fear its going to be another year or so before i get to experience Christmas the way i remember it.
I want to go into detail about the girl im talking to, but it'll probably sound like a broken record, especially to my LJ. And to go into detail would just make her another girl that i wrote about on lj, and shes better then that...so with that being said, just know i have someone VERY special in my life right now. and im extremely happy. i feel like i am living a chick flick :)
Man, i cant stop watching this show called 'Whale Wars' its so fucking addicting. shits intense.
New years resolutions:
To play a more positive role in other peoples lives. to help when i can. meaning, if i have the money, buy a homeless man lunch, or speak at AA meetings about my alcohol free lifestyle, or maybe volunteer at a school or even YMCA, and be a mentor of some sort. i dont know. but i want to play a constructive and positive role in other peoples lives.
Build my bankroll. make it something i am proud to have. and begin paying off my debt.
begin saving for a trip to Europe, even if i cant go in 2009, i want to go within the next two years.
And lastly learn to direct my stubbornness ONLY towards work, where it makes me money. and leave it out of my personal life where it could effect friendships and relationships.
Oh, looks like Christmas alone...should suck. it'll be the second year i have spent it alone. Last year was spent eating pizza rolls and playing call of duty. hah. speaking of call of duty...i keep telling myself im gonna buy a ps3 for myself for xmas, but i can never bring myself to drop that kind of money when i need to be focusing on building a bankroll, and maintenance on my car. but fuck i wanna play cod5 bad! im just afraid if i do it'll be like a black whole. and all of my free time will be spent on it. haha. but yeah..ah well all i can do is hope for a change of pace for next year. it sucks though because i consider myself an xmas "buff" (yes even though i am atheist) and im not going out doing the things i should be. like spending time with my family, or going to look at xmas lights, or watch carolers and building ginger bread houses or making cookies. for fucks sake i dont even have a tree. Even though my family is and was royally fucked up as a child, my mom still did a good job and making Christmas feel like Christmas. Even though she was a druggie whore, i have to give her that. i just fear its going to be another year or so before i get to experience Christmas the way i remember it.
I want to go into detail about the girl im talking to, but it'll probably sound like a broken record, especially to my LJ. And to go into detail would just make her another girl that i wrote about on lj, and shes better then that...so with that being said, just know i have someone VERY special in my life right now. and im extremely happy. i feel like i am living a chick flick :)
Man, i cant stop watching this show called 'Whale Wars' its so fucking addicting. shits intense.
New years resolutions:
To play a more positive role in other peoples lives. to help when i can. meaning, if i have the money, buy a homeless man lunch, or speak at AA meetings about my alcohol free lifestyle, or maybe volunteer at a school or even YMCA, and be a mentor of some sort. i dont know. but i want to play a constructive and positive role in other peoples lives.
Build my bankroll. make it something i am proud to have. and begin paying off my debt.
begin saving for a trip to Europe, even if i cant go in 2009, i want to go within the next two years.
And lastly learn to direct my stubbornness ONLY towards work, where it makes me money. and leave it out of my personal life where it could effect friendships and relationships.