she's scaring herself
i actually painted, and then i actually didn't rip it up or burn it or scream about how much i hate it. so i'm feeling good about that, even though there's acrylic paint under my fingernails that i can't seem to scrub off.
the night before last i dreampt about children dying, falling, and then burning. last night i dreampt about drowning, being pushed under very colorful water, following directions wrong, and getting my whole body sliced up in various patterns. it hurt quite a bit.
dollar sushi actually went alright :) the seroquel isn't giving me so much anxiety anymore. and the ativan helps.. apparently it must have given me amnesia when combined with the cogentin, but doesn't give me much amnesia otherwise... it's very strange to ride your bike after taking anti-anxiety medication. then who cares if you're hit by a car? you know that whatever happens will be okay. you can laugh at death and living a wasted life and feeling fragile and weak. it doesn't matter, and it's amusing that you could possibly think it did at one point. sometimes. sometimes it doesn't seem to work, or it only partially works. but they're wonderful when they really work.
the seroquel can make you hypoglycemic though, so i was shaking and shaking and got very dizzy since i'm apparently not eating so much.
stolen from _impossiblepain
1. Open a music player.
2. Go to 'all music'/'library'.
3. Hit shuffle/repeat/randomise.
4. Find photos of the first 10 artists/bands that come up [no repeats and no cheating].
5. Have people guess who the artists/bands are.
1.
(loveholic, guessed correctly by twentykicks)
2.
(bauhaus, guessed correctly by porcelina__ )
3.
(cinema strange, guessed correctly by porcelina__ )
4.
(lydia lunch, guessed correctly by porcelina__ )
5.
(the answer is on the picture, but shhh)
(the smashing pumpkins, guessed correctly by porcelina__ )
6.
(lycia, guessed correctly by _impossiblepain)
7.
(an incarnation of siouxsie - the creatures, the banshees, etc - guessed correctly by porcelina__ )
8.
(the cure, guessed correctly by wretched__)
9.
(switchblade symphony, guessed correctly by porcelina__ )
10.
(to be fair, that's only one person in the band, but they don't have that many great group photos)
(specimen, guessed correctly by porcelina__ )
obviously most of my favorite bands love to take black and white pictures of themselves looking intense.
picture of the day by kupka
well, i should be going now, bye bye :)
ps. my dad got me into the group they would not let me into. he is badass
pps. i took quite a bit of that ativan and it's delicious, and made feel better after the scary man came to our door. he really was scary.
the night before last i dreampt about children dying, falling, and then burning. last night i dreampt about drowning, being pushed under very colorful water, following directions wrong, and getting my whole body sliced up in various patterns. it hurt quite a bit.
dollar sushi actually went alright :) the seroquel isn't giving me so much anxiety anymore. and the ativan helps.. apparently it must have given me amnesia when combined with the cogentin, but doesn't give me much amnesia otherwise... it's very strange to ride your bike after taking anti-anxiety medication. then who cares if you're hit by a car? you know that whatever happens will be okay. you can laugh at death and living a wasted life and feeling fragile and weak. it doesn't matter, and it's amusing that you could possibly think it did at one point. sometimes. sometimes it doesn't seem to work, or it only partially works. but they're wonderful when they really work.
the seroquel can make you hypoglycemic though, so i was shaking and shaking and got very dizzy since i'm apparently not eating so much.
stolen from _impossiblepain
1. Open a music player.
2. Go to 'all music'/'library'.
3. Hit shuffle/repeat/randomise.
4. Find photos of the first 10 artists/bands that come up [no repeats and no cheating].
5. Have people guess who the artists/bands are.
1.
(loveholic, guessed correctly by twentykicks)
2.
(bauhaus, guessed correctly by porcelina__ )
3.
(cinema strange, guessed correctly by porcelina__ )
4.
(lydia lunch, guessed correctly by porcelina__ )
5.
(the answer is on the picture, but shhh)
(the smashing pumpkins, guessed correctly by porcelina__ )
6.
(lycia, guessed correctly by _impossiblepain)
7.
(an incarnation of siouxsie - the creatures, the banshees, etc - guessed correctly by porcelina__ )
8.
(the cure, guessed correctly by wretched__)
9.
(switchblade symphony, guessed correctly by porcelina__ )
10.
(to be fair, that's only one person in the band, but they don't have that many great group photos)
(specimen, guessed correctly by porcelina__ )
obviously most of my favorite bands love to take black and white pictures of themselves looking intense.
picture of the day by kupka
well, i should be going now, bye bye :)
ps. my dad got me into the group they would not let me into. he is badass
pps. i took quite a bit of that ativan and it's delicious, and made feel better after the scary man came to our door. he really was scary.