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I suppose it’s a really good thing that I don’t have very many attachments to people. I have my mom, but I only see her for about an hour everyday (I live with her), and she’s ignorant and emotionally abusive. Oh and did I forget to mention? She’s engaged. Engaged to a guy I don’t know and have never met. (That’s my mom for ya). She’ll more than likely move back to Mexico and travel back occasionally. From that, there will be a good solid 10 hour drive between us (and I’m okay with that, honestly). The only reason we’re even still living under the same roof is because of money, so because of that, our relationship with each other has been severely strained.
I’m not close with my extended family at all whatsoever. I have hundreds of cousins, many of whom I really should know, but I don’t. I mean, they’ve been in my house back in my hometown, and I still don’t know many of their names (or if they even exist, meaning I didn't know I had cousins that lived in MCA, where I currently live until just recently). So besides the whole money issue, I’ve got N O T H I N G holding me back from doing anything.
I kinda want a job that’ll give me the option of working on holidays, because for the past several years I’ve just spent them feeling sorry for myself, and I’m sick of that. I’m done with that.
Not to sound ungrateful, I know I do have a few select people in my life I actually can depend on (okay, more like one). but fudgeballs, nothing lasts forever and I really shouldn’t be so dependent on anyone like this. I need to get a fucking career and my own shit together.
Some guy the other day called me “lame” because I’ve never been to a *real* concert and I spend all of my time on campus. TROLOLOL. REALLY? Not to sound narcissistic, but I’ve got a 4.0 GPA in college. I’m sorry I don’t spend every other day going to bars, getting drunk, and sleeping with random strangers to have a good time. No, I don't want to sleep with you. You live with your parents and don't have a job or go to school. No, I don’t want to see your stupid band play at a local bar. I’ve got way more *important* things to do. Getting my degree and maintaining my good grades are my highest priority right now, (that and spending time with fern) and I feel that even though I don’t have very many people in my life I get to spend my time with to distract me from things, that’s (maybe, probably) a good thing. there isn’t anyone standing in my way (except for myself maybe).
I’m determined as fuck though.
also, I need a big "fuck off" sign to float over me where ever I go that only appears to guys that are only interested in one thing.
That, or I just need fernando to be with me, holding my hand. I bet me kissing a man 15 years older than I am will discourage them.
fuck off, seriously...
I’m not close with my extended family at all whatsoever. I have hundreds of cousins, many of whom I really should know, but I don’t. I mean, they’ve been in my house back in my hometown, and I still don’t know many of their names (or if they even exist, meaning I didn't know I had cousins that lived in MCA, where I currently live until just recently). So besides the whole money issue, I’ve got N O T H I N G holding me back from doing anything.
I kinda want a job that’ll give me the option of working on holidays, because for the past several years I’ve just spent them feeling sorry for myself, and I’m sick of that. I’m done with that.
Not to sound ungrateful, I know I do have a few select people in my life I actually can depend on (okay, more like one). but fudgeballs, nothing lasts forever and I really shouldn’t be so dependent on anyone like this. I need to get a fucking career and my own shit together.
Some guy the other day called me “lame” because I’ve never been to a *real* concert and I spend all of my time on campus. TROLOLOL. REALLY? Not to sound narcissistic, but I’ve got a 4.0 GPA in college. I’m sorry I don’t spend every other day going to bars, getting drunk, and sleeping with random strangers to have a good time. No, I don't want to sleep with you. You live with your parents and don't have a job or go to school. No, I don’t want to see your stupid band play at a local bar. I’ve got way more *important* things to do. Getting my degree and maintaining my good grades are my highest priority right now, (that and spending time with fern) and I feel that even though I don’t have very many people in my life I get to spend my time with to distract me from things, that’s (maybe, probably) a good thing. there isn’t anyone standing in my way (except for myself maybe).
I’m determined as fuck though.
also, I need a big "fuck off" sign to float over me where ever I go that only appears to guys that are only interested in one thing.
That, or I just need fernando to be with me, holding my hand. I bet me kissing a man 15 years older than I am will discourage them.
fuck off, seriously...