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Title: At The Beginning.
Author: aggressivebitch
Chapter: Chapter 02||??
Genre: Fluff/Romance/Angst.
Warnings: Angst, Mentions of self harm, Self hate, Serious character injury. (It gets better though!)
Disclaimer: If I owned them I wouldn't be writing fics for a living!
Rating: PG-NC-17
Pairing: Tora/Uruha past Aoi/Uruha
Summary: Life deals you a bad hand of cards most of the time. Yeah it hurts, but you have to learn to make the best of what you have before you lose it. My name is Kouyou Takashima I've been through it all and I am going to tell you my story.
"How is he?" A worried deep soothing voice spoke coming into the hospital, three more people and a set of elderly looking people followed him, they must have been Uruha's parents. Tora knew that voice. It was Aoi, he had to hold back a low growl, he didn't want to see anyone right now, he just wanted to be with his lover; who currently was undergoining emerengcy surgrey.
"I don't know its been four hours." Tora said standing up from his chair and walking over, he was still covered in some of Uruha's blood they had allowed him to run home and take a quick shower. Though he would not do it. He wasn't going to leave until he knew that Uruha was going to make it. The wound looked horrible when Uruha was brought in, his skin was torn apart, his back a wreck and if you looked real close you could almost see a bit of his spine. Tora feared the worst right now, none of them had seen how pale he was, how sick he looked.
He felt a hand rest on his shoulder squeezing it gently, he looked up and saw Ruki. "Look, hes strong believe me he can get through this. Noone knows Ruha like I do and he hates hospitals so hes going to do everything in his power to get better and get the hell out of this place." The smaller male laughed and sat down, though he was worried sick.
None of them saw this coming. Seriously though what are the fucking chances! Maybe it was because Uruha was so scared about being in the water, the shark sensed his heart beat so rapidly thinking it was dying a fish it almost chomped him in half. Tora saw it with his own eyes, he saw it pull his lover under the water, the bubbles, the red starting to surface. It all happened so fast for him. He reached under the water searching for him, he didn't know how far the shark had taken him under. Finally when he was able to he grabbed his hand, it was like a tug of war game though. Every time Tora would try to pull his lover to the surface, the shark will pull him back under almost like he was a rag doll. If Uruha didn't make it through this, none of them knew what they were going to do. His mother and father stood there looks of pure agony on their faces, noone could talk anymore or say anything, it was just one of those moments where Tora wished he was alone.
Arms came around my waist gently as I leaned back and rested my head against his neck purring happily at how wonderful it felt. "Mmm good morning angel." Aoi spoke nipping at my ear gently. A soft sound broke free from my lips. "Hello sexy man." I mumbled sleepily. I always hated mornings, we both knew that, but with him I was always glad to wake up. I rested my hands on his arms, so strong so musclar. I loved it. "Forever?" I simply asked, I knew he knew what I meant and he kissed over my neck nodding his head. "Forever and ever."
"Are you the man who came in with Takashima Kouyou?" A doctor asks making his way over towards Tora who stood up quickly and nodded his head. It had been nine hours, everyone was tired and mentally beating themselves up. "Yes I am...how is he?" Tora asked tugging at the collar of his shirt as if it was too hot in the place. It wasn't though, hospitals were dreadfully cold, he wondered how his lover could handle something like this, since his body was so senstive to the cold.
The doctor bowed his head shaking it. "We were able to stop the blood flow and close the wound, but it looks like some of the teeth from the shark that attacked him grazed over his spine, if you hadn't saved him when you did it would've severed it in no time." The doctor had no idea that Tora was his lover, they were going to leave it like that, until further notice. Tora felt dread touch every nerve in his body. "Do you know what kind of shark did this to him?" Aoi asked walking over. The man sighed softly. "It could've been any kind, great white, tiger...we will not know until he wakes up." "Can I see him?" Tora asked frowning for a moment. "Hes still in recovery, when he is awake and moved to a private room we will let you know, I must advise though the way his spine looked...well it things just don't look too good right now, so it would be best for you to prepare yourselves if things should go from bad to worse." He gave them a firm nod before turning and walking back to the operating room.
Tora had to find a wall to lean against. He didn't know how to handle something like this, he didn't think he could, but he needed too; Uruha needed him right now more than anything. "I think its best if you go see him first...maybe a comfortable voice might help calm him down." Tora said looking over at Aoi, the brunette naturally surprised at such things coming from Tora's mouth. "I don't know if its a good idea, he probably doesn't want to see me right now." He shook his head, waving his hands in dismissle. Causing Tora to laugh and look over at him. "Oh please Aoi, like your ego needs stroked anymore, he misses you constantly, I've heard him say your name in his sleep, he always dreams about you, maybe this is what he needs for closure. How can I compete with a memory as strong as you?" He simply asked and walked off toward the doors to smoke.
Aoi stood there dumfounded, as one of the nurses walked over and tapped him on the shoulder. "You want to see Takashima Kouyou?" She asked softly. He nodded his head and followed her to the room he would be in for only god knows how long. Ruki sat next to Kai and sighed softly. They could hear his mother sobbing softly against his father's shoulder. It was like Uruha was already dead. "Come on Ruha, I know you can make it through this, your stronger than your letting on I know it." He thought out loud.
Once inside the room Aoi froze at the sight, Uruha looked fine, well not fine, but he didn't look as bad as they thought he would. He just looked like he was sleeping. "Try not to say anything that might upset him. He can still hear you're every word and he probably needs a comforting voice right now." She smiled politely and bowed as she left the room leaving Aoi with his sleeping ex lover.
He looked Uruha up and down. He was so pale and fragile. There were a few bruises on his arms and cheeks probably from being thrashed around. Aoi didn't really want to see his back it probably looked awful, but he lifted up the blanket and gasped at the sight he saw. His back looked like someone had taken a huge chunk out of it. There were at least a hundred stitches if not more. You could see the jagged areas where the teeth had bitten him, it was starting to turn black and blue, probably going to be bruised for awhile.
Aoi quickly dropped the blanket and pulled up a chair sitting down and staring at Uruha, he looked so peaceful, yet in so much pain at the same time, maybe those drugs weren't working like they were suposed too.
He took one of the honey blonde's hands and even though Uruha didn't squeeze back he still knew he could hear him. "Listen Uru, its me Aoi, I know you can beat this, it might be scary now, but I know you can do it. You're so strong, so beautiful, this is just one those small mile stones your going to be able to walk over like its nothing." He spoke softly and kissed his knuckles, his fingers stroking over one Uruha's cheeks gently brushing the hair away from his face.
Aoi sat there quietly after that, just listening to all the machines and Uruha's quiet breathing, it was almost non existant though and thats what scared him the most. Eventuall the nurses came in and put an oxygen mask on his nose and mouth telling Aoi that this would help him breath better when he woke up; if he woke up of course.
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Weeks past and Uruha still showed no signs of waking up. The doctors told them they had gotten the tests back and it looked like the shark's teeth had grazed over the blonde's spine causing some paralysis. They weren't sure how long or how far down it was, but from Uruha's arms twitching and turning his head from side to side, they knew it wasn't anything to do with his upper body. That only meant it was his legs, that would break his heart, he loved his legs and if he couldn't feel them or walk he would go insane.
Tora came every day after Aoi left and sat with Uruha all night. He and Aoi had established some sort of weird friendship throughout this. It would probably make Uruha happy to know that, but Tora was only doing this for Uruha. He was worried about him, he hadn't moved since they brought him out of surgrey, at least not infront of him. He had to go home for a few hours every day, take a shower and change. The doctor told all of them that this was going to be a long process, he wasn't even sure how long it would take.
Once Uruha had opened his eyes, but they looked glazed over and unfocused. That was just part of the process, his eyes weren't that beautiful light chestnut colored brown like they normally were. They were dull and almost lifeless, he would always look straight at Tora before he going back to sleep and falling limp on the bed. "Oh god Kou please wake up, I need you so much, you can't leave me like this." Tora said softly holding on tight to his hand.
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Finally the day came when Uruha's eyes finally opened, they were back to their normal shade and he was starting to get his color back. It had been almost a month that he had been out and when he woke up Tora and Aoi were at his sides immediately.
"Where..am I? What happened?" He asked weakly pulling the oxygen mask away from his mouth, though Aoi quickly put it back on. "You need this Uru it will help you feel better." He said softly. Uruha frowned and nodded his head looking over at Tora with a small weak smile on his lips. "I missed you so much Tiger." He mumbled and pulled the mask away even though Aoi still protested.
Tora leaned down and captured Uruha's lips in his own, the blonde instantly kissing back desperately as if it was all he had to survive. Though they quickly pulled away a blush touching Uruha's cheeks, he had forgotten that Aoi was there. "Gomen ne Aoi-kun." He said softly and pulled the make back on his face inhaling deep breaths of air.
Uruha frowned and looked down at his legs. Tora and Aoi's eyes met they knew what was about to come. "Why can't I feel my legs? Whats going on guys? I can't move my legs!" His heart started to race again and he hissed out letting a whimper break free from his throat when pain racked his entire body from the bite on his neck. The heart monitor went insane, letting them know that he was panicing.
"Kouyou calm down please." Tora said and made Uruha look at him, the blonde was frantic not knowing what to do right now. "Tora I can't feel my legs! That fucking shark paralyzed me!" He sobbed quietly and looked away from both men, his fingers curling around the sheets on the bed. "The doctors said they didn't think it would be permant, you can get your legs back Uruha, you just have to try. After your back heals of course so not now!" Aoi pushed him back down on the bed making Uruha wince in pain.
"I want to be alone." He simply said and turned on his side adverting his eyes away from Tora and Aoi just starring out the window. That boat trip was suposed to the moment that Uruha let Tora make love to him. Now he might not ever get to do it again, he might not ever get to walk again. That scared the shit out of him. How could he play in his band if he couldn't walk? Tora and Aoi left him to himself for the time being to let him calm down before they did or tried anything else.
Once the good news was delievered to his friends and family, they all left to go home finally, his mother was making plans to come in and see him tomorrow. So was Ruki, Reita, and Kai if they were allowed to of course.
For Uruha this was going to be a long hard recovery if he could even get to the point of wanting to get out of bed without being in so much pain.