carmen et error
i understand that people make mistakes. but making the same mistake over and over again is ridiculous. im too frail to even begin to correct it though, so it doesnt matter. i wish people could keep their mouths shut sometimes, mainly myself cause i have some mild form of tourette's(i have to, im sure of it). at least i didnt say anything stupid this morning to her, to make her feel uncomfortable or anything i hope.she keeps calling me a jerk, but i dont think she means it, i hope she doesnt mean it cause i dont want to be a jerk. but im bad at holding a conversation she tells me, im not, its just her, i cant talk to her because of what has happened i think, but im not entirely sure. at least, not without someone there to keep me in check, so that i dont blurt out things that could potentially hurt her feelings, or those of other people
greg doesnt think i care about other people's feelings. he doesnt know, i dont care either, i care a lot, so much even that it hurts sometimes.
andrew and luke invited hailey to go see 'in good company' or whatever with them, i guess thats how it went, at any rate those three are going to see a movie. without me hahahaha-how insulting. its a terrible idea i think, andrew is just gonna get hurt again, and again. i know you still have feelings for her, you cant hide them, at least not from me, if you didnt still have feelings for her you wouldnt be so sad every day. i think maybe you are moving things along too fast, take some time away from things for a while. just trust me. and if im right about things again, i think im going to just stop breathing, and die on the spot. you already know how she feels about you, and although it may be depressing i dont think its going to change suddenly for any reason, but im not one to know, you should talk to casey about it or someone else who isnt a male... i dunno all im trying to say is dont put yourslef in a situation which will get you hurt by her again...
i have work to do though. so im gonna go do my work.
well i was going to work, but the "extension ladder" didnt extend without some serious force, i got mad at it, and started kicking it and one thing led to another, so it extends, but its really bent up (not my fault, honestly), i put it up against the house and couldnt get past the third rung without stopping. so i figured out im afraid of heights, not neccesarily heights, maybe its just old crappy ladders, i mean like deathly, heart-attack, mind numbing fear. it was terrible, i cant do it... anyway... i dunno, im feeling kinda down today, not sure what it is (lie). i know exactly what it is, and you should too, hahaha.
ill stop before i force something out that i shouldnt say.
greg doesnt think i care about other people's feelings. he doesnt know, i dont care either, i care a lot, so much even that it hurts sometimes.
andrew and luke invited hailey to go see 'in good company' or whatever with them, i guess thats how it went, at any rate those three are going to see a movie. without me hahahaha-how insulting. its a terrible idea i think, andrew is just gonna get hurt again, and again. i know you still have feelings for her, you cant hide them, at least not from me, if you didnt still have feelings for her you wouldnt be so sad every day. i think maybe you are moving things along too fast, take some time away from things for a while. just trust me. and if im right about things again, i think im going to just stop breathing, and die on the spot. you already know how she feels about you, and although it may be depressing i dont think its going to change suddenly for any reason, but im not one to know, you should talk to casey about it or someone else who isnt a male... i dunno all im trying to say is dont put yourslef in a situation which will get you hurt by her again...
i have work to do though. so im gonna go do my work.
well i was going to work, but the "extension ladder" didnt extend without some serious force, i got mad at it, and started kicking it and one thing led to another, so it extends, but its really bent up (not my fault, honestly), i put it up against the house and couldnt get past the third rung without stopping. so i figured out im afraid of heights, not neccesarily heights, maybe its just old crappy ladders, i mean like deathly, heart-attack, mind numbing fear. it was terrible, i cant do it... anyway... i dunno, im feeling kinda down today, not sure what it is (lie). i know exactly what it is, and you should too, hahaha.
ill stop before i force something out that i shouldnt say.