June 23, 2003
i wrote this almost 4 years ago and it still rings quite true:
"I haven't had a girlfriend in over 2.5 years, and that honestly doesn't bother me a bit. I miss the companionship at times, but i'm quite happy with my life. If i die single, then so be it...I'm not the type (anymore) that will jump into a relationship b/c i'm afraid to be alone...those aren't the types of relationships that make you happy and they aren't fullfilling. I think WAY too many people fall into that trap...too many people are scared to be alone, but you know what I've found out? As long as you have your friends, you are never alone.
I think I've got the best friends in the world. Do they let me down sometimes? yeah. Are they flakey sometimes? yeah. Are their intentions not always the best? yeah. Do they forget to call sometimes? yeah. I've done all of the above too. But you know what? When it comes down to it and I really NEED someone...all i have to do is make a phone call and they are there when it counts. I've got friends from all different walks of life, and i know that even the flakey ones will be there if i really need them. Sometimes them being there is not always obvious, but they are there...and many times they come through when you least expect them to.
i know at times i've questioned myself asking if i deserve the friendship of some of these people...you know, maybe i'm not always the best friend, but i figured something else out. Everyone has faults, even those people that you think you don't deserve...and as long you are a truly their friend and not using them or taking advantage of them...there's a reason they are your friend...don't worry about it."
i seriously need to write about the damien rice show tonight, and i will...
"I haven't had a girlfriend in over 2.5 years, and that honestly doesn't bother me a bit. I miss the companionship at times, but i'm quite happy with my life. If i die single, then so be it...I'm not the type (anymore) that will jump into a relationship b/c i'm afraid to be alone...those aren't the types of relationships that make you happy and they aren't fullfilling. I think WAY too many people fall into that trap...too many people are scared to be alone, but you know what I've found out? As long as you have your friends, you are never alone.
I think I've got the best friends in the world. Do they let me down sometimes? yeah. Are they flakey sometimes? yeah. Are their intentions not always the best? yeah. Do they forget to call sometimes? yeah. I've done all of the above too. But you know what? When it comes down to it and I really NEED someone...all i have to do is make a phone call and they are there when it counts. I've got friends from all different walks of life, and i know that even the flakey ones will be there if i really need them. Sometimes them being there is not always obvious, but they are there...and many times they come through when you least expect them to.
i know at times i've questioned myself asking if i deserve the friendship of some of these people...you know, maybe i'm not always the best friend, but i figured something else out. Everyone has faults, even those people that you think you don't deserve...and as long you are a truly their friend and not using them or taking advantage of them...there's a reason they are your friend...don't worry about it."
i seriously need to write about the damien rice show tonight, and i will...