me-o-my
so, I'm off work today. It's a strange feeling, considering I'm not planning to sell any vitamins or maybe even make any appointments. Not till tonight anyway. Fuck it.
I'm tired. I'm tired of driving my poor car (which is falling apart). I'm tired of rushing. I'm tired of living in that stupid house all by myself. I'm tired of the heat. I'm tired of EVERYTHING.
I guess when you want to be miserable, you can be, right??
I'm upset because I know August is going to be absolutely miserable. I'm also upset because yesterday i decided to be stupid and leave three fans on in my grandma's house, and that just so happened to be the day that my aunt came over and got all pissed off. Apparently, no one likes that I'm living there. So now, because i left the fans on, I have to pay the electric bill this month, which is bullshit, because it's probably sky high, and I dont even have decent electric. I never cook anything, barely even use the coffee pot, and keep the fans on because there's no AC. There's not even a fucking shower. It's not like I'm living in luxury. I usually keep the fans on so Dum Dum doesn't sweat to death. Yes, i know this is dumb. I won't be doing that anymore.
I just hate feeling like an inconvenience. It's not like I asked to be kicked out. It's not like I'm not working to save money so that eventually I CAN move into my own place. Christ...I dont even sleep anymore. That's how much I've been working.
Ugh...really just pissy right now.
I also found out that my internship at hoffman homes was terminated. The guy who was supposed to be my supervisor was demoted, so Dr. Rees found me a new placement. There's no art therapy, and i'll be working with autistic children, but the good news is that Dr. Rees is trying to hire someone to be an art therapy mentor for me so that i can start my own program there, which will be an OUTSTANDING opportunity. Plus the placement is in Hanover, which is closer to school anyway.
But now i may not have a solid job after graduation, and I'm probably not going to temple unless someone's gonna pay for it. So much for having a tentative plan.
I have bills to pay. I need to go grocery shopping. I'm going on vacation in 10 days and dont want to spend any money while I'm there...but i have to. I'm working another 12 hour day tomorrow. My car is a mess. My car isnt running well. I'm an inconvenience. My mom is mad at me.
I hope everyone else's life is great.
I'm tired. I'm tired of driving my poor car (which is falling apart). I'm tired of rushing. I'm tired of living in that stupid house all by myself. I'm tired of the heat. I'm tired of EVERYTHING.
I guess when you want to be miserable, you can be, right??
I'm upset because I know August is going to be absolutely miserable. I'm also upset because yesterday i decided to be stupid and leave three fans on in my grandma's house, and that just so happened to be the day that my aunt came over and got all pissed off. Apparently, no one likes that I'm living there. So now, because i left the fans on, I have to pay the electric bill this month, which is bullshit, because it's probably sky high, and I dont even have decent electric. I never cook anything, barely even use the coffee pot, and keep the fans on because there's no AC. There's not even a fucking shower. It's not like I'm living in luxury. I usually keep the fans on so Dum Dum doesn't sweat to death. Yes, i know this is dumb. I won't be doing that anymore.
I just hate feeling like an inconvenience. It's not like I asked to be kicked out. It's not like I'm not working to save money so that eventually I CAN move into my own place. Christ...I dont even sleep anymore. That's how much I've been working.
Ugh...really just pissy right now.
I also found out that my internship at hoffman homes was terminated. The guy who was supposed to be my supervisor was demoted, so Dr. Rees found me a new placement. There's no art therapy, and i'll be working with autistic children, but the good news is that Dr. Rees is trying to hire someone to be an art therapy mentor for me so that i can start my own program there, which will be an OUTSTANDING opportunity. Plus the placement is in Hanover, which is closer to school anyway.
But now i may not have a solid job after graduation, and I'm probably not going to temple unless someone's gonna pay for it. So much for having a tentative plan.
I have bills to pay. I need to go grocery shopping. I'm going on vacation in 10 days and dont want to spend any money while I'm there...but i have to. I'm working another 12 hour day tomorrow. My car is a mess. My car isnt running well. I'm an inconvenience. My mom is mad at me.
I hope everyone else's life is great.