DieXShinya
Title: Why do i feel so bad (( songfic))
Author: agentyuna
Chapter: one shot
Rating: G
Band: Dir en grey
Pairings: DiexShinya
Warnings: None
Disclaimer: They saddly don't belong to me..neather dose this song.. it is by Valintine.. PS.. **= SONG LYRICS
Chapter summary:
Tell me why do I feel so bad? I want to hurt you deep in your heart. I feel so bad. I thought we were in real love. I feel so bad. I'm speaking from the inside. But now I want to fight against it, and so you can't make me be hurt.
Shinya sighed wakening up, he looked over at his clock it read five in the morning. For some time now shinya had been doing this for awhile, he believed it was his sub continence and his normal continence intertwining in his dreams.. making him think about Die and what had happened a month before... So in routine Shinya sighed and opened his notebook out and flipped a page and started to write his dream out... he found that if he didin't.. he would go insane..
**In my dreams there are some things that I can't describe I have to speak about
or I would keep this lie.**
After writing it down shinya laid back into bed and was looking up at the ceiling... thinking of how just one month ago Die and him were in love and now.. it felt like that was along ago. Shinya remembered the day he had walked into Die and Toshiya having sex.. they were to into themeless to relies he was there watching them in there deed... So shinya quietly had left.. Wen he had returned an hour later.. Die had been sitting at the kitchen with tears in his eyes.. Shinya had never seen his lover show that kind of week-ness it had always been him to come to die crying not vise versa. So then Die had come out to confess to Shinya.. Shinya had just look at him with eyes as big as a deer... even though he knew..
** When it gets me down oh then I get turned around.
You stabbed me in the back. Is this something you enjoy, something you enjoy?**
The day After that had happened.. Kaoru of corse herd word about it and had strictly pulled shinya out of practice to talk to him on how it wasn't his fault and that the best thing to do was to move on. Shinya was still looking at the ceiling... he turned over and saw a picture frame on his night stand, the picture frame of course contained a picture but a picture of him and die. The picture always made shinya smile.. it was a picture of there one month anniversary, They had been at a bar and enjoying themeless. Shinya let out a long sigh... Even if Kaoru told shinya that it wasn't his fault.. why did he always think.. it was.. and why did he feel the way he did?
**Tell me why do I feel so bad? I want to hurt you deep in your heart. I feel so bad. I thought we were in real love. I feel so bad. I'm speaking from the inside. But now I want to fight against it, and so you can't make me be hurt.**
Shinya began to have tears run down his face now, " oh why did i have to go and open my feelings to you Andou Daisuke... why!". Shinya and Die had been on a brake , They had been talking wen Shinya told die how much love and compassion and anything else that could make a straight-man puke.. and die had of corse gave him one of his heart melting smiles and held shinya kissing him.. telling him he felt the same and that no matter what happend.. it would always be them against the world... And of course that night.. Die and Him made love.
**Once as I was naive and silly, I thought you told the truth. Now I know more about you. I will not believe in you, believe in you.**
After a couple of hours.. Shinya fell asleep, The next morning Shinya got up and ready for practice. Wen he opend the door die was standing there right in front of him... Shinya's cheecks flushed still as his heart pounded. Still everytime Shinya was around Die.. his body still reacted to him.. " hello shinya" Die said smileing Shinya just nodded and looked down " hello die" and then walked away.
**"When you look at me, will I ever be free?"**
~ Owarii~
Author: agentyuna
Chapter: one shot
Rating: G
Band: Dir en grey
Pairings: DiexShinya
Warnings: None
Disclaimer: They saddly don't belong to me..neather dose this song.. it is by Valintine.. PS.. **= SONG LYRICS
Chapter summary:
Tell me why do I feel so bad? I want to hurt you deep in your heart. I feel so bad. I thought we were in real love. I feel so bad. I'm speaking from the inside. But now I want to fight against it, and so you can't make me be hurt.
Shinya sighed wakening up, he looked over at his clock it read five in the morning. For some time now shinya had been doing this for awhile, he believed it was his sub continence and his normal continence intertwining in his dreams.. making him think about Die and what had happened a month before... So in routine Shinya sighed and opened his notebook out and flipped a page and started to write his dream out... he found that if he didin't.. he would go insane..
**In my dreams there are some things that I can't describe I have to speak about
or I would keep this lie.**
After writing it down shinya laid back into bed and was looking up at the ceiling... thinking of how just one month ago Die and him were in love and now.. it felt like that was along ago. Shinya remembered the day he had walked into Die and Toshiya having sex.. they were to into themeless to relies he was there watching them in there deed... So shinya quietly had left.. Wen he had returned an hour later.. Die had been sitting at the kitchen with tears in his eyes.. Shinya had never seen his lover show that kind of week-ness it had always been him to come to die crying not vise versa. So then Die had come out to confess to Shinya.. Shinya had just look at him with eyes as big as a deer... even though he knew..
** When it gets me down oh then I get turned around.
You stabbed me in the back. Is this something you enjoy, something you enjoy?**
The day After that had happened.. Kaoru of corse herd word about it and had strictly pulled shinya out of practice to talk to him on how it wasn't his fault and that the best thing to do was to move on. Shinya was still looking at the ceiling... he turned over and saw a picture frame on his night stand, the picture frame of course contained a picture but a picture of him and die. The picture always made shinya smile.. it was a picture of there one month anniversary, They had been at a bar and enjoying themeless. Shinya let out a long sigh... Even if Kaoru told shinya that it wasn't his fault.. why did he always think.. it was.. and why did he feel the way he did?
**Tell me why do I feel so bad? I want to hurt you deep in your heart. I feel so bad. I thought we were in real love. I feel so bad. I'm speaking from the inside. But now I want to fight against it, and so you can't make me be hurt.**
Shinya began to have tears run down his face now, " oh why did i have to go and open my feelings to you Andou Daisuke... why!". Shinya and Die had been on a brake , They had been talking wen Shinya told die how much love and compassion and anything else that could make a straight-man puke.. and die had of corse gave him one of his heart melting smiles and held shinya kissing him.. telling him he felt the same and that no matter what happend.. it would always be them against the world... And of course that night.. Die and Him made love.
**Once as I was naive and silly, I thought you told the truth. Now I know more about you. I will not believe in you, believe in you.**
After a couple of hours.. Shinya fell asleep, The next morning Shinya got up and ready for practice. Wen he opend the door die was standing there right in front of him... Shinya's cheecks flushed still as his heart pounded. Still everytime Shinya was around Die.. his body still reacted to him.. " hello shinya" Die said smileing Shinya just nodded and looked down " hello die" and then walked away.
**"When you look at me, will I ever be free?"**
~ Owarii~